j2
04-04-10, 04:05
I have a long history of health anxiety. I have also struggled with ear, nose and throat issues for most of my 38 years. I had my tonsils out in my early 30's, as well as my sinuses scoped twice to remove polyps. Currently I am feeling like both my ears are plugged, there is a some ringing, and I am light headed. I am also having frequent but not constant pain in my neck/throat. I am hoping this is just sinus problems but I can't stop thinking I have a tumor in my throat and it has spread to my brain. I have been coping with all over muscle and joint pains for a year or so. The pains are sometimes like arthritis and other times there is pain in my finger tips or on top of my hand or over my elbow. I just keep freaking out that this is some sort of tumor or neuro disease. Most of the time I don't think I feel anxious but maybe things are tearing me up just below the surface and I am expressing the emotional pain as physical pain. Regardless of the cause I am scared and worried. I just want my life back and could use some words of encouragement from people who understand. Sorry for such a desperate post but I don't know where else to turn. Nobody else undestands what it is like to live in this prison of a mind that can't make sense of itself.
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