Desprate Dan
04-04-10, 08:29
Hello Folks,
I am sorry to bother you all again, but i am really trying hard to get to the roots of my anxiety so that i can try to and sort it all out...
I have shut myself away from the opposite sex because when ever i get into a relationship all i can think about is that she will be thinking about having sex and i just panic, as much as i want to have sex this massive wave of panic overcomes me and it just doesnt happen and has left me embarrased time after time, and because i am so self criticle i just beat myself up over and over about it (I even thought i must be gay) even though i have no feelings towards men.... What is wrong with me??????
I would love to have a loving caring female to look after cherish and love but as soon as it comes to sex, because of the failure i have been in the past i just clam up, which leaves them thinking i dont find them attractive or i must be gay... So i have shut myself away from getting involved altoghether but this just add's to the depression..
If only i could find a girl who really understands me and even if it takes 6 months 1 year before we have sex it doesnt mean i dont love them.. I just feel so criticle of myself why cant i just be like everyone else??
How can i find such a girl, just seems that all my relationships in the past have been a disaster and just added to my anxiety now i avoid them (not that any come along anyway) because of fear that it will just end the same...
I so want to be in love, and spend my time thinking and caring for someone, i am not bothered about looks, its whats in the heart that counts..
I just feel like i am just going to live my life alone and unhappy..
Dan
I am sorry to bother you all again, but i am really trying hard to get to the roots of my anxiety so that i can try to and sort it all out...
I have shut myself away from the opposite sex because when ever i get into a relationship all i can think about is that she will be thinking about having sex and i just panic, as much as i want to have sex this massive wave of panic overcomes me and it just doesnt happen and has left me embarrased time after time, and because i am so self criticle i just beat myself up over and over about it (I even thought i must be gay) even though i have no feelings towards men.... What is wrong with me??????
I would love to have a loving caring female to look after cherish and love but as soon as it comes to sex, because of the failure i have been in the past i just clam up, which leaves them thinking i dont find them attractive or i must be gay... So i have shut myself away from getting involved altoghether but this just add's to the depression..
If only i could find a girl who really understands me and even if it takes 6 months 1 year before we have sex it doesnt mean i dont love them.. I just feel so criticle of myself why cant i just be like everyone else??
How can i find such a girl, just seems that all my relationships in the past have been a disaster and just added to my anxiety now i avoid them (not that any come along anyway) because of fear that it will just end the same...
I so want to be in love, and spend my time thinking and caring for someone, i am not bothered about looks, its whats in the heart that counts..
I just feel like i am just going to live my life alone and unhappy..
Dan