cattia
06-04-10, 12:49
Hi everyone,
I am new to this site but not new to Health anxiety. I have suffered for many years, since I was in my late teens from what I remember and I am now 33. I have had several spells where my anxiety has taken a back seat but at the moment it is back with a vengence. I had a baby girl almost four months ago and she is amazing, so I should be happy and enjoying motherhood. However I am preoccupied with this strange sensation that I get right after urinating, it is a discomfort, almost feels like some sort of contracting feeling and it happens right after I finish peeing! I am soooo worried that this could be cancer or MS, I dwell on it all the time even to the point where in my mind I am planning what it would be like for my husband to bring up our daughter on his own, and what I would leave behind for her when I die. I know this sounds crazy but these thoughts are often with me and it is so upsetting. I have had a urine test which came back clear, so I know this isn't a UTI. In the past I have taken prozac for my anxiety and have had really good results with it, but I am breast feeding at the moment so would rather stay off meds for the next few months at least.
It is really like a shadow hanging over me all the time to think that I am not going to be around to see my little girl grow up. In my rational mind I know that this could turn out to be nothing but I can't help thinking this time it really could be it. After all I have had so many 'false alarms' in the past with HA that I think one of these days there really is going to be something wrong with me, just through the law of averages!
I hope that some of you might be able to relate to how it feels to think and live this way. I don't know that anyone can solve this problem as I have been here many times before and there seems to be no way I an convince myself that this is not something serious. I get nervous every time I go to the loo because of this sensation. I am going back to the doctor on Friday but I can't get an appointment with my own doctor so I don't know how I will get on, they usually just look at me as though I am a fruit cake.
I am new to this site but not new to Health anxiety. I have suffered for many years, since I was in my late teens from what I remember and I am now 33. I have had several spells where my anxiety has taken a back seat but at the moment it is back with a vengence. I had a baby girl almost four months ago and she is amazing, so I should be happy and enjoying motherhood. However I am preoccupied with this strange sensation that I get right after urinating, it is a discomfort, almost feels like some sort of contracting feeling and it happens right after I finish peeing! I am soooo worried that this could be cancer or MS, I dwell on it all the time even to the point where in my mind I am planning what it would be like for my husband to bring up our daughter on his own, and what I would leave behind for her when I die. I know this sounds crazy but these thoughts are often with me and it is so upsetting. I have had a urine test which came back clear, so I know this isn't a UTI. In the past I have taken prozac for my anxiety and have had really good results with it, but I am breast feeding at the moment so would rather stay off meds for the next few months at least.
It is really like a shadow hanging over me all the time to think that I am not going to be around to see my little girl grow up. In my rational mind I know that this could turn out to be nothing but I can't help thinking this time it really could be it. After all I have had so many 'false alarms' in the past with HA that I think one of these days there really is going to be something wrong with me, just through the law of averages!
I hope that some of you might be able to relate to how it feels to think and live this way. I don't know that anyone can solve this problem as I have been here many times before and there seems to be no way I an convince myself that this is not something serious. I get nervous every time I go to the loo because of this sensation. I am going back to the doctor on Friday but I can't get an appointment with my own doctor so I don't know how I will get on, they usually just look at me as though I am a fruit cake.