rosepetal
18-01-06, 12:43
Firstly, my apologies for coming here just to get support, and not giving much.....sorry...and this is long, too....[Sigh...]I just...need some support....please....
*$^&()__+*^%$$V<
I saw my psychiatrist yesterday, for the 1st time since my assessment in October.....well. at least THAT'S over for another 3 months.....
There were 2 medical students observing...O the fun.....I did have the choice to have them in or not, but I thought what the hell, Occ Health dr, (yes, my manager referred me to occupational health, although I'm already getting the support I need...she just doesn't get it....)GP, psychotherapist, psychiatrist all in these 2 weeks, I may as well have some med students as well......
I'm to halve my dose of efexor. From 150mg per day, to 75mg. straight away, no titration or gradual.....then after having 75mg day for a month, I'm to stop the efexor altogether......arrrrgggggg......
(mind you, he did say providing there's no deterioration of my symptoms...)
O, my, this is going to be fun.not.
I managed to get him to prescribe me some propranalol for panic attacks as needed...he was all into my learning coping methods....hell, I am doing all I can.....
besides, if he's reducing my efexor so drastically, I need SOMETHING to help me cope with all the withdrawal crap.
Arrrggggg..and I just got the sense that he was laughing at me inside all the way through....but maybe I'm just, ha, just, being paranoid.... :
At least I'll still be on the mirtazapine....(remeron/zispin) 30mg at night...
Those psych sessions just go so fast my mind can't keep up with it....I feel I have to go over it all afterwards and think what did he say again? say again?
grrrrrrrrooooouuccchhhhh
arrrrrgggggggggg
as if an appointment with my psychiatrist with 2 medical students as well wasn't enough to make my anxiety splinter, now there's the crappy arrangements for transferring an out-patient prescription to a regular one I just take to my pharmacy.....it takes so *insert swear word of choice* long....
so, ok if you're a 'normal' person it wouldn't be so bad...I accept that, but I'm feeling anxious and angry and scared and impatient about reducing my dose of this med and then so I behave in a crappy and impatient way....I'm just upset and anxious, right....
I don't WANT to feel this *insert swear word again* way.....*grits teeth*.....I don't want to behave like a neurotic and impatient difficult person...
...but when you're anxious and depressed...AND about to reduce your med dosage, its hard enough to remember all you have to do normally without having to handle this other carfuffle of wait this long and do that and try and fit it in around the routine you've developed and feel marginally comfortable with......garrhhhgghhhh
I am sooo tense....*tries to breathe*
Katie
*$^&()__+*^%$$V<
I saw my psychiatrist yesterday, for the 1st time since my assessment in October.....well. at least THAT'S over for another 3 months.....
There were 2 medical students observing...O the fun.....I did have the choice to have them in or not, but I thought what the hell, Occ Health dr, (yes, my manager referred me to occupational health, although I'm already getting the support I need...she just doesn't get it....)GP, psychotherapist, psychiatrist all in these 2 weeks, I may as well have some med students as well......
I'm to halve my dose of efexor. From 150mg per day, to 75mg. straight away, no titration or gradual.....then after having 75mg day for a month, I'm to stop the efexor altogether......arrrrgggggg......
(mind you, he did say providing there's no deterioration of my symptoms...)
O, my, this is going to be fun.not.
I managed to get him to prescribe me some propranalol for panic attacks as needed...he was all into my learning coping methods....hell, I am doing all I can.....
besides, if he's reducing my efexor so drastically, I need SOMETHING to help me cope with all the withdrawal crap.
Arrrggggg..and I just got the sense that he was laughing at me inside all the way through....but maybe I'm just, ha, just, being paranoid.... :
At least I'll still be on the mirtazapine....(remeron/zispin) 30mg at night...
Those psych sessions just go so fast my mind can't keep up with it....I feel I have to go over it all afterwards and think what did he say again? say again?
grrrrrrrrooooouuccchhhhh
arrrrrgggggggggg
as if an appointment with my psychiatrist with 2 medical students as well wasn't enough to make my anxiety splinter, now there's the crappy arrangements for transferring an out-patient prescription to a regular one I just take to my pharmacy.....it takes so *insert swear word of choice* long....
so, ok if you're a 'normal' person it wouldn't be so bad...I accept that, but I'm feeling anxious and angry and scared and impatient about reducing my dose of this med and then so I behave in a crappy and impatient way....I'm just upset and anxious, right....
I don't WANT to feel this *insert swear word again* way.....*grits teeth*.....I don't want to behave like a neurotic and impatient difficult person...
...but when you're anxious and depressed...AND about to reduce your med dosage, its hard enough to remember all you have to do normally without having to handle this other carfuffle of wait this long and do that and try and fit it in around the routine you've developed and feel marginally comfortable with......garrhhhgghhhh
I am sooo tense....*tries to breathe*
Katie