LaNae
09-04-10, 20:05
So today I started getting really jittery about one of my mind's current fave fears, and I just felt so exhausted. I can't cope with this any more, this constant fear.
This week I have had 2 minor (still awful!) panic attacks besides the usual non-stop fear. I am just 24 and should be enjoying life but I am in a constant state of dread. If I manage to defeat or wear out one issue, another one crops up out of the blue.
Have spent years seeing counsellors- helped me find out more about myself and the way I think and was enjoyable to have a chat, but at the end of the day did NOTHING for my anxiety. Doctor can't help, seen loads, they either suggest yoga (did it for ages, again enjoyable, but no improvement in anxiety whatsoever) or beta blockers (hey I have anxiety- I read the leaflet and I feel as if might as well have been asked to take cyanide, plus I'd rather actually change than cover things up), or more counselling.
I'm so terrified that this will go on forever. I have tried absolutely everything, currently going through self-help books/cds like sweets but, apart from being interesting, again no actual improvement.
Every day I feel like I am living in a war zone scared of a bomb dropping or being caught in gunfire. Seriously, because every second i am terrified. My fears are illogical- really scary to me but I know upon telling someone they will sound stupid- but they produce the same reaction as if I actually did have something to worry about. I can't carry on like this. i feel like there's no escape.I feel hopeless.
If I could sum up my mind's constant phrase it would be 'something bad is going to happen, watch out.' Every second, on repeat, nothing ever shuts it up, ever. It's exhausting.
Has ANYONE here recovered? Tell me how. Please. I am really, really desperate. Nothing works.
This week I have had 2 minor (still awful!) panic attacks besides the usual non-stop fear. I am just 24 and should be enjoying life but I am in a constant state of dread. If I manage to defeat or wear out one issue, another one crops up out of the blue.
Have spent years seeing counsellors- helped me find out more about myself and the way I think and was enjoyable to have a chat, but at the end of the day did NOTHING for my anxiety. Doctor can't help, seen loads, they either suggest yoga (did it for ages, again enjoyable, but no improvement in anxiety whatsoever) or beta blockers (hey I have anxiety- I read the leaflet and I feel as if might as well have been asked to take cyanide, plus I'd rather actually change than cover things up), or more counselling.
I'm so terrified that this will go on forever. I have tried absolutely everything, currently going through self-help books/cds like sweets but, apart from being interesting, again no actual improvement.
Every day I feel like I am living in a war zone scared of a bomb dropping or being caught in gunfire. Seriously, because every second i am terrified. My fears are illogical- really scary to me but I know upon telling someone they will sound stupid- but they produce the same reaction as if I actually did have something to worry about. I can't carry on like this. i feel like there's no escape.I feel hopeless.
If I could sum up my mind's constant phrase it would be 'something bad is going to happen, watch out.' Every second, on repeat, nothing ever shuts it up, ever. It's exhausting.
Has ANYONE here recovered? Tell me how. Please. I am really, really desperate. Nothing works.