mary3
11-04-10, 15:48
I am absolutly gutted, I was just having a really good few weeks, i had read the book by Dr Claire weekes and was in such a positive frame of mind. All my anxiety symptoms had improved and i had also stopped taking my pulse, really felt like i had cracked it this time and then i got my smear test results.
Turns out i have severe dsykaryosis, which means i have abnormal cells on my cervix that needs treatment in 2 weeks. Im trying to be positive about it but on the letter straight after the diagnosis it says 'this is unlikely to be cancer'. Just about the worst thing you can say to someone with health anxiety right?!
I no i shouldnt but i googled, i mainly found positve stories but i keep remembering the negative like the stage ive got is the one before cancer and that they do a biopsy which then i will have to wait for the results to see if mine is pre cancerous or cancer. All the references to cancer is what i am finding really hard.
All sorts of scenerios are running through my mind, including the one where i have to say good bye to my babies.
I just dont know how it got severe so quick, i am 29 and have had 2 previous tests, one 3 years ago which came back normal.
To make matters worse i am getting all my old anxiety symptoms, the ectopics came back yesterday and last night i was so tired and kept feeling new symptoms like heavy arms. And i kept falling asleep on the sofa really early in the evening so in my tired mind i kept thinking 'oh your tired because you have cancer' and then i was trying to stay awake to prove that i didnt and this was making me feel worse.
Ive now got to wait 2 weeks for my appointment so i know im just going to keep feeling worse. My rational side knows that really its good news that its been detected as now it can be treated and it is meant to take years to develop onto cancer, but my anxious side has so much more power, giving me negative thoughts and new anxiety symptoms to deal with.
Sorry for the long rambling post, just needed to get this out! Any advice about the procedures involved with an abnormal smear result would be very much appreciated.
Turns out i have severe dsykaryosis, which means i have abnormal cells on my cervix that needs treatment in 2 weeks. Im trying to be positive about it but on the letter straight after the diagnosis it says 'this is unlikely to be cancer'. Just about the worst thing you can say to someone with health anxiety right?!
I no i shouldnt but i googled, i mainly found positve stories but i keep remembering the negative like the stage ive got is the one before cancer and that they do a biopsy which then i will have to wait for the results to see if mine is pre cancerous or cancer. All the references to cancer is what i am finding really hard.
All sorts of scenerios are running through my mind, including the one where i have to say good bye to my babies.
I just dont know how it got severe so quick, i am 29 and have had 2 previous tests, one 3 years ago which came back normal.
To make matters worse i am getting all my old anxiety symptoms, the ectopics came back yesterday and last night i was so tired and kept feeling new symptoms like heavy arms. And i kept falling asleep on the sofa really early in the evening so in my tired mind i kept thinking 'oh your tired because you have cancer' and then i was trying to stay awake to prove that i didnt and this was making me feel worse.
Ive now got to wait 2 weeks for my appointment so i know im just going to keep feeling worse. My rational side knows that really its good news that its been detected as now it can be treated and it is meant to take years to develop onto cancer, but my anxious side has so much more power, giving me negative thoughts and new anxiety symptoms to deal with.
Sorry for the long rambling post, just needed to get this out! Any advice about the procedures involved with an abnormal smear result would be very much appreciated.