crazyhayz
13-04-10, 21:42
Basically, as u know from previous posts, i thought i was 90% cured of anxiety disorder. After loads of sessions of CBT and taking Citalopram 20mg for the last couple of months, i started to feel alot better. Then i just felt amazing. I havent had a panic attack in ages. And two days ago i started feeling lightheaded (but it was constant, not just every now n then, it was all day) but i didnt let it bother me coz i just knew it was anxiety and tried my best to shurg it off and think everything ive been taught so far etc etc. Woke up the day after and it was STILL there. And i had it all day yesterday. And yes uve guessed it....ALL day today. 3 days now. Its so bad i get off balance and wobbly on my feet, and it seemed everything around me was moving or swaying from side to side or up and down.
I started getting tightness in my heart area today (along with the constant lightheadedness/dizziness) which is something i always get with anxiety, and i went to asda earlier on with my partner and baby son and BAM.... HUGEEEEE panic attack out of nowhere... I was saying over and over to my partner "oh my god im guna faint hun, oh my god" I didnt faint, and i took a dizepam which i always carry with me. The panic attack subsided, as it always does, but i STILL feel CONSTANTLY lightheaded. Why has this come on out of the blue and done this?! I was so in control, i felt like i had my life back. Now i could just cry and cry and cry. Maybe i need stronger Citalopram.
But I just cannot blv i have relapsed. And also dont UNDERSTAND why/how i have relapsed??!! Its angering me but also so upsetting for me :( Im now starting to worry about my ENT specialist appointment on June 1st, but it hasnt bothered me 1 bit up until now! I feel back to square one :( And I feel STUPID AND THICK that i actually believed i was getting better too! Im so naive, im a complete joke. I dont kniowwhat to do now, im getting all the horrible symptoms again, and nothing seems real around me. Im wobbly so scared to stand up :( I just hate everything now and i felt so happy only a few days ago :( Sorry to go on, i just cant believe it :'( Any words of support guys? I dont know what to do :'( xxxxx
I started getting tightness in my heart area today (along with the constant lightheadedness/dizziness) which is something i always get with anxiety, and i went to asda earlier on with my partner and baby son and BAM.... HUGEEEEE panic attack out of nowhere... I was saying over and over to my partner "oh my god im guna faint hun, oh my god" I didnt faint, and i took a dizepam which i always carry with me. The panic attack subsided, as it always does, but i STILL feel CONSTANTLY lightheaded. Why has this come on out of the blue and done this?! I was so in control, i felt like i had my life back. Now i could just cry and cry and cry. Maybe i need stronger Citalopram.
But I just cannot blv i have relapsed. And also dont UNDERSTAND why/how i have relapsed??!! Its angering me but also so upsetting for me :( Im now starting to worry about my ENT specialist appointment on June 1st, but it hasnt bothered me 1 bit up until now! I feel back to square one :( And I feel STUPID AND THICK that i actually believed i was getting better too! Im so naive, im a complete joke. I dont kniowwhat to do now, im getting all the horrible symptoms again, and nothing seems real around me. Im wobbly so scared to stand up :( I just hate everything now and i felt so happy only a few days ago :( Sorry to go on, i just cant believe it :'( Any words of support guys? I dont know what to do :'( xxxxx