Lyn
21-01-06, 22:45
Hello, I'm Lyn. I feel like the only person in the world who has the problem that I do, so I was pleased to find a website where I can see it is not only me that has problems. (Although I don't wish it on anyone!)
Sorry if this is a bit long! It started when I was 12 years old and I was on my own eating some chips. I didn't exactly choke on it, but it got stuck in my throat and I felt like I couldn't breathe and honestly thought I was going to die. I managed to move it on by quickly having a drink, but ever since then my life has never been the same and I've never eaten properly since. I don't know why, but I didn't tell anyone at the time - not even my parents. I guess I wanted to pretend everything was ok and not worry my mum. I finally told my best mate when I was 18 and she sat with me whilst I told my mum about it. She then helped me with going to the doctor and appointments and things. I tried a range of different 'treatments' which included: having my tonsils out, (they were enlarged but made no difference when they were gone) reiki healing, 2 different hypnotherapists, counselling, and medication for anxiety/depression. None of these helped at all, apart from the medication perhaps eased my anxiety a little. It's been about 5 years now since I had these things and I've kind of given up hope. Also, my mum never asks me about it anymore - I think she just assumes I'm ok now (but I'm really not) and I find it so hard to talk about anyway, I can't bring myself to talk to her about it. So I've struggled with this for over 10 years now (I'm 23).
I've only ever told my mum, (who obviously told my dad, not that I really wanted her to), my best friend, and my boyfriend. I really don't like talking about it but I can't see how I can go through the rest of my life with this problem - it affects me every single day because of course I have to eat every day and it has made almost every aspect of my life hard. It's worse when I'm in front of people so I hate going to restaurants or eating at college, at work, whilst socialising - anything.
Sorry this is so long, but I can't really explain it any simpler than that.
Lyn. x
Sorry if this is a bit long! It started when I was 12 years old and I was on my own eating some chips. I didn't exactly choke on it, but it got stuck in my throat and I felt like I couldn't breathe and honestly thought I was going to die. I managed to move it on by quickly having a drink, but ever since then my life has never been the same and I've never eaten properly since. I don't know why, but I didn't tell anyone at the time - not even my parents. I guess I wanted to pretend everything was ok and not worry my mum. I finally told my best mate when I was 18 and she sat with me whilst I told my mum about it. She then helped me with going to the doctor and appointments and things. I tried a range of different 'treatments' which included: having my tonsils out, (they were enlarged but made no difference when they were gone) reiki healing, 2 different hypnotherapists, counselling, and medication for anxiety/depression. None of these helped at all, apart from the medication perhaps eased my anxiety a little. It's been about 5 years now since I had these things and I've kind of given up hope. Also, my mum never asks me about it anymore - I think she just assumes I'm ok now (but I'm really not) and I find it so hard to talk about anyway, I can't bring myself to talk to her about it. So I've struggled with this for over 10 years now (I'm 23).
I've only ever told my mum, (who obviously told my dad, not that I really wanted her to), my best friend, and my boyfriend. I really don't like talking about it but I can't see how I can go through the rest of my life with this problem - it affects me every single day because of course I have to eat every day and it has made almost every aspect of my life hard. It's worse when I'm in front of people so I hate going to restaurants or eating at college, at work, whilst socialising - anything.
Sorry this is so long, but I can't really explain it any simpler than that.
Lyn. x