UFC_fan
22-04-10, 16:49
I have posted here before about my speaking problems, or at least perceived speaking problems - it has been going on for around 4 months now and I cannot see the end. In a nut shell I am hypervigilent of my speech and am finding speaking awkward and am almost phobic about certain words and phrases - it feels like nothing rolls off the tongue and that I have to take a deep breath in before I attempt certain terms.
The thing is that when I'm calm (recently experience when I was off work for a week) the problem is so much better but as soon as I get that tension back in me the problem comes again. It is ruining my social interactions and work because I'm constantly analysing everything that comes out of my mouth and I have a fear that I won't be able to pronounce things, even though I usually do it feels strained and like really hard work.
Am I just over thinking something that comes naturally hence making it seem difficult or do I really have some kind of Neurological disorder????
My GP won't take me seriously, I've been doing some CBT which has helped me accept it's not MND (somehing that I was afraid of at first) but it is still not really helping me over come the problem which is why I keep coming back to the idea it is physiological. I am also taking 40mg of Seroxat which has taken the edge off of the anxiety but not much else.
I've lost a lot of confidence and I wish I could go back to the time when I never scrutinized my speech, it feels like that it isn't possible now.
I'm up for trying anything, does anyone thing hypnosis might help in this case - if I remove teh fixation perhaps I can prove whether or not I have dreamed this all up in my head.
Can anyone relate to this or give me advice?
The thing is that when I'm calm (recently experience when I was off work for a week) the problem is so much better but as soon as I get that tension back in me the problem comes again. It is ruining my social interactions and work because I'm constantly analysing everything that comes out of my mouth and I have a fear that I won't be able to pronounce things, even though I usually do it feels strained and like really hard work.
Am I just over thinking something that comes naturally hence making it seem difficult or do I really have some kind of Neurological disorder????
My GP won't take me seriously, I've been doing some CBT which has helped me accept it's not MND (somehing that I was afraid of at first) but it is still not really helping me over come the problem which is why I keep coming back to the idea it is physiological. I am also taking 40mg of Seroxat which has taken the edge off of the anxiety but not much else.
I've lost a lot of confidence and I wish I could go back to the time when I never scrutinized my speech, it feels like that it isn't possible now.
I'm up for trying anything, does anyone thing hypnosis might help in this case - if I remove teh fixation perhaps I can prove whether or not I have dreamed this all up in my head.
Can anyone relate to this or give me advice?