Vixxy
23-04-10, 22:46
Hi all. Since Christmas Ive had trouble eating.
It started when I had a really bad relapse on Xmas eve where I was too anxious to eat, but I forced myself to eat anyway.
Since then my general anxiety level is dropping, thanks to an increase in my Ad's and propranalol, however my problems with food got a lot worse.
Now I associate food with anxiety. Every time I eat I get anxious. Doesnt matter if Im starving hungry or if I really like the food Im eating. It always ends with an anxiety attack which forces me to push the rest of the food away.
Since xmas Ive lost 13lbs, which leaves me at a really low 103lbs (7st 5lbs).
I think I can also fits in with my fear of being sick. Since doing some reading I notice a lot of my food issues fit in with emetophobia. For instance I dont eat eggs or wont eat anything from a kitchen thats had eggs in it, just in case it makes me sick. I check sell by dates over and over again. If I open a packet of food and dont remember, then ill throw it away instead of trusting that I was the one that opened it. I get intense anxiety if someone I know says they feel sick as Im convinced that means Im going to be sick aswell.
(Ive not actually been sick in about 10 years, so god knows where I got this phobia from).
I just went to see a CBT therapist this week who basically told me I dont have emetophobia but an eating disorder(anorexia). Its left me feeling pretty low as the last thing I want is to be this thin! I hate it!!!
Im basically asking for peoples advice on how I beat this.
Thanks for reading.:unsure:
It started when I had a really bad relapse on Xmas eve where I was too anxious to eat, but I forced myself to eat anyway.
Since then my general anxiety level is dropping, thanks to an increase in my Ad's and propranalol, however my problems with food got a lot worse.
Now I associate food with anxiety. Every time I eat I get anxious. Doesnt matter if Im starving hungry or if I really like the food Im eating. It always ends with an anxiety attack which forces me to push the rest of the food away.
Since xmas Ive lost 13lbs, which leaves me at a really low 103lbs (7st 5lbs).
I think I can also fits in with my fear of being sick. Since doing some reading I notice a lot of my food issues fit in with emetophobia. For instance I dont eat eggs or wont eat anything from a kitchen thats had eggs in it, just in case it makes me sick. I check sell by dates over and over again. If I open a packet of food and dont remember, then ill throw it away instead of trusting that I was the one that opened it. I get intense anxiety if someone I know says they feel sick as Im convinced that means Im going to be sick aswell.
(Ive not actually been sick in about 10 years, so god knows where I got this phobia from).
I just went to see a CBT therapist this week who basically told me I dont have emetophobia but an eating disorder(anorexia). Its left me feeling pretty low as the last thing I want is to be this thin! I hate it!!!
Im basically asking for peoples advice on how I beat this.
Thanks for reading.:unsure: