jude
24-01-06, 19:50
Hello everyone.
I have not been here for a while because I have been trying not to dwell on the feelings of depersonalisation.I hope you are all coping with this awful disorder.
I have started college full time and now eat loads and sleep plenty.
Problem is the dp is still here.
I am beginning to wonder whether it will ever go as it still seems as bad as ever.
I have tried so hard to ignore it but it wont leave me alone.
I still dont feel as though I exist. The world outside myself still feels strange.
When I go into thoughts about anything, I feel like Iv gone miles away from reality and have a struggle to get back to the here and now.
My mind feels like a huge hollow.
When the dp is bad, i feel like I dont know myself. I get odd sensations that are impossible to explain and even the way Im feeling feels unreal, as though I am imagining it all.
Am I making sense here,
Depression is sinking in because I feel like there is no hope now. When I try tell myself it is just anxiety, my mind says ... so why wont it go. I dont feel anxious any more.
My question is, are these feelings still caused by anxiety or am I doing it by just thinking about it?
How do you get out of this trap. How do you stop thinking about dp. Does it go away and you cant imagine how it fels any more or do I have to stop it by not thinking about it.
Im rambling on now, but if anyone understands what I am talking about, please help me by replying to this post.
Thanks.
Jude
Be gentle with yourself....you just need some time to heal.
I have not been here for a while because I have been trying not to dwell on the feelings of depersonalisation.I hope you are all coping with this awful disorder.
I have started college full time and now eat loads and sleep plenty.
Problem is the dp is still here.
I am beginning to wonder whether it will ever go as it still seems as bad as ever.
I have tried so hard to ignore it but it wont leave me alone.
I still dont feel as though I exist. The world outside myself still feels strange.
When I go into thoughts about anything, I feel like Iv gone miles away from reality and have a struggle to get back to the here and now.
My mind feels like a huge hollow.
When the dp is bad, i feel like I dont know myself. I get odd sensations that are impossible to explain and even the way Im feeling feels unreal, as though I am imagining it all.
Am I making sense here,
Depression is sinking in because I feel like there is no hope now. When I try tell myself it is just anxiety, my mind says ... so why wont it go. I dont feel anxious any more.
My question is, are these feelings still caused by anxiety or am I doing it by just thinking about it?
How do you get out of this trap. How do you stop thinking about dp. Does it go away and you cant imagine how it fels any more or do I have to stop it by not thinking about it.
Im rambling on now, but if anyone understands what I am talking about, please help me by replying to this post.
Thanks.
Jude
Be gentle with yourself....you just need some time to heal.