Lissy43
29-04-10, 20:52
I posted a couple of months back I think it was regarding my bleeding phobia I have had since my operation back in December. I worry ever since I had a very nasty gushing period in January, my first one after the op, and the next couple were very heavy too. I then realised I had developed a phobia, as I was checking myself between periods all the time, worrying about every sensation I felt down there thinking I was bleeding and during periods I get very anxious.
I went on the pill last month, I decided to do it to see if it eased the bleeding and helped my phobia. I was fine for 3 weeks and yes it helped me alot, I felt more confident that I wouldn't bleed between periods (not that I had before anyway). I then had my pill free week this week, my first one so I was abit worried. I bled from Saturday night, which was a light coloured red discharge, then from Sunday - Monday I had a heavier bleed which was more like thick discharge with some blood. By Tuesday it was abit lighter and yesterday I had nothing really all day. Today though I have had orange smears when ive wiped down there, and tonight it has been orangey/red. This has made me anxiety kick in again, imaginging I will bleed heavy again:-( It has made me realise my phobia hasn't gone, I had done so well this period aswell:-(
How do I get over this phobia? I am so on edge tonight, I used to bleed, then stop and then have light spots for a day or so, maybe up until day 8/9 before I was on the pill, so surely it can be the same on the pill, but my irrational side is making me worry I will have a heavy bleed or something.
I don't know why this fear won't go, it is embaressing and ruling my life at times, some days I don't even like going out incase I bleed, and when I am on my period I am too anxious to go out. I have a fear of haemorrage now (whcih I know is totally irrational) but also I am just freaked out by any bleeding down there.
Can anyone offer me some wise words or advise on how I can maybe tackle this very irrational fear that I have?
I went on the pill last month, I decided to do it to see if it eased the bleeding and helped my phobia. I was fine for 3 weeks and yes it helped me alot, I felt more confident that I wouldn't bleed between periods (not that I had before anyway). I then had my pill free week this week, my first one so I was abit worried. I bled from Saturday night, which was a light coloured red discharge, then from Sunday - Monday I had a heavier bleed which was more like thick discharge with some blood. By Tuesday it was abit lighter and yesterday I had nothing really all day. Today though I have had orange smears when ive wiped down there, and tonight it has been orangey/red. This has made me anxiety kick in again, imaginging I will bleed heavy again:-( It has made me realise my phobia hasn't gone, I had done so well this period aswell:-(
How do I get over this phobia? I am so on edge tonight, I used to bleed, then stop and then have light spots for a day or so, maybe up until day 8/9 before I was on the pill, so surely it can be the same on the pill, but my irrational side is making me worry I will have a heavy bleed or something.
I don't know why this fear won't go, it is embaressing and ruling my life at times, some days I don't even like going out incase I bleed, and when I am on my period I am too anxious to go out. I have a fear of haemorrage now (whcih I know is totally irrational) but also I am just freaked out by any bleeding down there.
Can anyone offer me some wise words or advise on how I can maybe tackle this very irrational fear that I have?