brandywright
02-05-10, 00:12
hi for years ive had panic problems, and i worry alot. well i was doing pretty good this time last year, i met a guy who my friend set me up with and he was so nice to me, he took me everywhere i wanted to go, out to eat and got me anything i wanted mostly. a month or so he moved in with me at my parents house everything was great, he moved here from Indiana, for work on a gas rig. and was staying with someone i knowed that he worked with so he then moved in with me, and we were happy, we never got into many fights and got along great, we both like video games so we played alot of them together and hanged out, and he said he loved me and acted like he really did, by the way he treated me, he took me to indiana alot and i enyjoyed myself..i loved it up there, i also enjoyed traveling, my panic problems keeo me from it most of my life, and i didnt have anyone to do it with also. then almost a year we been together, his lost his job and figured he had to move back home with his parents to try and go to college and better himself. i couldnt go but we were gonna try and make it work, he said he loved me and missed me for about a month up there and then one day called and dumped me im so heartbroken, cant stop thinking about us and all the times we been together..and missing him and worried ill never see him again,,its makeing me sick again, i cant get it off my mind no matter how hard i try..and he told me when hes done with school we might get back together.mostly why he dumped me was over not having a car..he wanted me to have one, thats the only problem we had..he thinks i should have one, cuz he wanted to live together just us, but he cant do it all by himself he said. so he said if i got one we might get back together , so i got me a car now and i try to tell him but he wont answer the phone,,so i think he lied..but i dont know, but he did tell me that he wasnt looking for anyone up there..and he told me he loved me, but i called him after he dumped me and upset him now he wont talk to me, it hurts, i wrote a letter and still nothin.im worried he doesnt love me at all now....i just need a friend to talk too...he was my best friend and mostly only friend.....