Gryphoenix
02-05-10, 20:05
Hey all,
I haven't been here in quite some time and have been doing really well! Alas, but I am experiencing a small blip, but it's okay I just want to get over it. I notice the more I have a slight panic, the more likely I am to have palps. Does anyone else get this? This is half of what is making me lose it anyway, expecting that *THUD* or that pinchy thud feeling. I hate the sharp shooty types. The worse my heart rate gets, the more likely I am to have them. I get this horrible thought of my heart going bonkers, flipping and flopping and throwing a tantrum, and I'm thinking about that so much it makes me worse. >__< I'm like, "Excuse me brain, can you not think about that please?" But of course it doesn't listen. XD It's making me really nervous...I'm also getting nervous about my heart rate. Which is silly because I've exercised a bit in this last week (yesterday even) and some days I'm perfectly okay with it, and some days I can't take it. -__-
And what's funny is that I only feel anxious and panicky after I eat. So I know the palps are probably from my stomach irritating the vagus nerve or whatever it's called. >__<
I know that this will ALL stop once I'm truly not afraid of my heart. But as much as I tell myself my heart is okay and these are all normal adrenaline and panic reactions, my mind is like..."Yeah, but what if?" It really is easier some days than others.
I haven't been here in quite some time and have been doing really well! Alas, but I am experiencing a small blip, but it's okay I just want to get over it. I notice the more I have a slight panic, the more likely I am to have palps. Does anyone else get this? This is half of what is making me lose it anyway, expecting that *THUD* or that pinchy thud feeling. I hate the sharp shooty types. The worse my heart rate gets, the more likely I am to have them. I get this horrible thought of my heart going bonkers, flipping and flopping and throwing a tantrum, and I'm thinking about that so much it makes me worse. >__< I'm like, "Excuse me brain, can you not think about that please?" But of course it doesn't listen. XD It's making me really nervous...I'm also getting nervous about my heart rate. Which is silly because I've exercised a bit in this last week (yesterday even) and some days I'm perfectly okay with it, and some days I can't take it. -__-
And what's funny is that I only feel anxious and panicky after I eat. So I know the palps are probably from my stomach irritating the vagus nerve or whatever it's called. >__<
I know that this will ALL stop once I'm truly not afraid of my heart. But as much as I tell myself my heart is okay and these are all normal adrenaline and panic reactions, my mind is like..."Yeah, but what if?" It really is easier some days than others.