phattgal
04-05-10, 09:25
Hi there I am really suffering lately Im so fed up of crying and being convinced that im dying of various things.
Firstly im a 35 year old mom of 2 and im convinced i wont see them grow up.
it started with me having sore heavy breasts all month long then when my period came theyd be ok then it would start again, so I plucked up the courage to go Docs and she had a good feel etc and told me to get water tablets, which i did and it took ages so during this time i started to doubt the doc and i started getting chest pains too and it all went left sided then. Anyway Im rambling so sorry.....but since then:
1. pain behind knee which i felt i was dying from a blood clot....doc said its sciatic pain
2. tenderness in front of neck which OBVIOUSLY was my lymph nodes swelling up due to lymphoma which then, as soon as that thought had planted itself, i started having sweats at night and the itches and i had to keep feeling all my other nodes in turn making them sore:doh:
3. then A LUMP (yes a lump, joy of joys) appeared on my top gum just above my front top tooth, panicpanicpanicpanic must be cancer!!!!! so after stressing for a week i visited dentist and he said doesnt know what it is but nothing to worry about. ......ok......until later that day when i realised that the dentist obviously doesnt know what hes doing so panic some more.....went docs and told her of my lymphoma/gum lump fears and she told me im working myself up into a state and "go and calm down":scared15:
So i went and got 2nd dental opinion......nothing to worry about...looks fine....went back to docs to see if he could help with anxiety.......he told me to try meditation or breathing exersises....how.....help......
OMG and now my lips feel like they are burning and im scared that there must be something wrong with my mouth that is making it eat me from the inside out (sounds incredibly stupid out loud....perfectly rational in my head though) i dont know what to do..........i feel like im in a huge lake and i cant get to the egde i can tread water for short periods but then i start drowning again and im pulling others with me.......im so tired of crying all the time
im having bloods taken on thursday too......
im so very sorry for the long post i just wanted to get it all out to somebody who maybe had same problems or understood etc. i hope somebody will take the time to answer me as im am drowning again....fast.:sad:
Firstly im a 35 year old mom of 2 and im convinced i wont see them grow up.
it started with me having sore heavy breasts all month long then when my period came theyd be ok then it would start again, so I plucked up the courage to go Docs and she had a good feel etc and told me to get water tablets, which i did and it took ages so during this time i started to doubt the doc and i started getting chest pains too and it all went left sided then. Anyway Im rambling so sorry.....but since then:
1. pain behind knee which i felt i was dying from a blood clot....doc said its sciatic pain
2. tenderness in front of neck which OBVIOUSLY was my lymph nodes swelling up due to lymphoma which then, as soon as that thought had planted itself, i started having sweats at night and the itches and i had to keep feeling all my other nodes in turn making them sore:doh:
3. then A LUMP (yes a lump, joy of joys) appeared on my top gum just above my front top tooth, panicpanicpanicpanic must be cancer!!!!! so after stressing for a week i visited dentist and he said doesnt know what it is but nothing to worry about. ......ok......until later that day when i realised that the dentist obviously doesnt know what hes doing so panic some more.....went docs and told her of my lymphoma/gum lump fears and she told me im working myself up into a state and "go and calm down":scared15:
So i went and got 2nd dental opinion......nothing to worry about...looks fine....went back to docs to see if he could help with anxiety.......he told me to try meditation or breathing exersises....how.....help......
OMG and now my lips feel like they are burning and im scared that there must be something wrong with my mouth that is making it eat me from the inside out (sounds incredibly stupid out loud....perfectly rational in my head though) i dont know what to do..........i feel like im in a huge lake and i cant get to the egde i can tread water for short periods but then i start drowning again and im pulling others with me.......im so tired of crying all the time
im having bloods taken on thursday too......
im so very sorry for the long post i just wanted to get it all out to somebody who maybe had same problems or understood etc. i hope somebody will take the time to answer me as im am drowning again....fast.:sad: