carter
10-05-10, 17:21
hi guys....
i have not been on here for a while as needed to have a break from everything....
the good news first
Im back at work full time, from being totally pretified of generally doing anything and being housebound for 3 months im now working, out and about and socialising...
Now the bad news......
although i do all of the above i still feel petrified inside i cant shift it....everydays a battle mentally....it gets so bad somedays i feel like locking myself in a room and staying there...but i plod on....., i do know they are not going to kill me blah blah blah, but it really really gets me down.......its no fun feeling scared all the time
im eating properly, sleeping ok better than i was....im only taking beta blockers however i find they only work for a while then you need to increase the dosage..but this just takes the edge of my panic attacks and anxiety so they are at least manageable.....
I would have to say im pretty down at the min well most of the time.....i want my old spark back.....unfortntatley feeling scared most of the time puts a dampener on that....and most people who know me just think im back to my old self now......how wrong they are
ive got a docs apointment tomorrow to discuss the way forward dosage ect........and i think the doc wants me to go down the ssri route again.....but to be honest after the last ones (prozac) making me housebound...... i dunno if i could go back and go through all of that again......was so so scary
please reply guys ......
i have not been on here for a while as needed to have a break from everything....
the good news first
Im back at work full time, from being totally pretified of generally doing anything and being housebound for 3 months im now working, out and about and socialising...
Now the bad news......
although i do all of the above i still feel petrified inside i cant shift it....everydays a battle mentally....it gets so bad somedays i feel like locking myself in a room and staying there...but i plod on....., i do know they are not going to kill me blah blah blah, but it really really gets me down.......its no fun feeling scared all the time
im eating properly, sleeping ok better than i was....im only taking beta blockers however i find they only work for a while then you need to increase the dosage..but this just takes the edge of my panic attacks and anxiety so they are at least manageable.....
I would have to say im pretty down at the min well most of the time.....i want my old spark back.....unfortntatley feeling scared most of the time puts a dampener on that....and most people who know me just think im back to my old self now......how wrong they are
ive got a docs apointment tomorrow to discuss the way forward dosage ect........and i think the doc wants me to go down the ssri route again.....but to be honest after the last ones (prozac) making me housebound...... i dunno if i could go back and go through all of that again......was so so scary
please reply guys ......