Shadowwin
31-01-06, 11:00
I decided to post this in here because I feel it is a success story in many ways as many of you know I left my husband last Thursday morning after being with him for 9 years.
I would never have thought one person could do so much damage of if I had looked back to my childhood and my Mother I would have then realized just how much damage can be done.
I feel like a new person, I haven't had a panic attack since the night before I left the house. Since i've been here at my brother's house I've begun to find a life again, I've begun to realize what it was I truly lived in and what I put up with.
I have no remorse for leaving him, however I do miss my step son terribly but I know in my heart that this is the way things must be I would have thought it would have been much harder, I would have guessed this would have been much more difficult but I guess my heart had already moved on with my spirit and was waiting for my body to catch up.
I feel like i've taken control of my life in one swift movement that i've made decisions for myself and these decisions had been sorely needed for so long but I kept putting them off because I was comfortable I used to dream of being myself again and now I think in time I can be, I actually looked in the mirror a good long look and was pleased with what I saw of course there was noone there to belittle me or destroy my budding self confidence like there had been for so long.
Life flows and ebbs; sometimes we have to be destroyed to begin again
and like a Phoenix rise from the ashes of our charred life..
Blessings
Talia
I would never have thought one person could do so much damage of if I had looked back to my childhood and my Mother I would have then realized just how much damage can be done.
I feel like a new person, I haven't had a panic attack since the night before I left the house. Since i've been here at my brother's house I've begun to find a life again, I've begun to realize what it was I truly lived in and what I put up with.
I have no remorse for leaving him, however I do miss my step son terribly but I know in my heart that this is the way things must be I would have thought it would have been much harder, I would have guessed this would have been much more difficult but I guess my heart had already moved on with my spirit and was waiting for my body to catch up.
I feel like i've taken control of my life in one swift movement that i've made decisions for myself and these decisions had been sorely needed for so long but I kept putting them off because I was comfortable I used to dream of being myself again and now I think in time I can be, I actually looked in the mirror a good long look and was pleased with what I saw of course there was noone there to belittle me or destroy my budding self confidence like there had been for so long.
Life flows and ebbs; sometimes we have to be destroyed to begin again
and like a Phoenix rise from the ashes of our charred life..
Blessings
Talia