For Hoper's

[mollymoo]

Hoper I just read your post and tried to reply but it came up as an invalid link? Anyway here is my reply

Hopers, I hope you can find some help somewhere (doctors, psych etc). I have truly been there done that and have the t-shirt to prove it. I can't really offer much to you in the way of advice as we are all so different but just my own personal experiences.....

Have had severe depression for over 6 years (think I have had it mildy all my life...am in my 30's), then 2 years ago my ex (out of the blue) tried to murder me literally. I was 10 secs away from not being here and since then I suffer from anxiety and PTS. I have had suicidal thoughts since. I have been medicated so much during all of this and still am. Currently am on a new medication(along with old ones) as a year ago my new partner had a serious accident and after being in a coma for over a month, he is now a paraplegic. I quit work and am his full time carer so life for me sucks! In the last 2 days, I think new meds may be kicking in (finally thank god) as I THINK I am feeling better than I ever had. Sorry if this is long and possibly irrelevant to you but I just wanted to give you an idea that you are NOT alone. There is hope....there has to be. Take care and I hope you can find some help.xx

[Going home]

Hi Molly, yes i also replied to hoper's thread a short time ago, but now can't see it, it seems to have disappeared.

Anna xx

[hopers]

thanksmolly and i mo so orry to herre about yr situathion i do hope that you find some peace and help i hope that you are ok and im always here if you ever ned supoort


i have to teel youthat resoni delted my tred was because after a one message expaling how i was feeling and with no reply i had to admitt how bad things were ( and even thoe there ahve been so meny threddsa bout sucied and self harm ) i seemt to have been penolised abut admitting to it only to geta few r words of encourrgent im hurt dearly to have been left a meaage telling me that im inthe rong when there ahve been so mney people before me int he same situathuion getting advice and words orencorragment .............. i was hurt to feel like i was the only one int he rong its broken my heart to think that iv upse any onebut i cant go on pertending everything is ok when its not i have no outside support ( thinking that the firnds i had on here would offer something only to be told im brekingt he rules( which by the way iv never seen one any ones elses sucide and self harm thred

sorry to have waffled oni thank you derly for youkinds words ad im so very sorry you had to go thorw what you did

hopers

[Going home]

Georga, you are certainly not in the wrong for posting your feelings, don't ever think that ok? but maybe the reason nobody replied was that they didn't know how to give you the help you need. Suicidal thoughts are serious and you need to talk to someone who has the experience to help you with this. The forum is full of people who are ill, and while people can help with most of the anxiety and depressive feelings, suicide might just be a step too far for people who are ill themselves...do you see? whereas the samaritans are there 24/7 and are trained to deal with this much better than some of us.

[mollymoo]

Don't you DARE be sorry! I am only new here so do not know the rules or whatever but you are not alone. I thank you for being so kind but I did not write part of my story for any sympathy just to try and show you that others have been there. I believe that we only have one shot at this life and you need to do whatever it is that will make you see that ( not anything illegal or harmful). I really hope you find a specialist who can help you. I know it is only words and I never listened when told, but you have to be strong and try and keep some sort of faith ( I am not religious but whatever works for you). Surround yourself with only people who care and can try and understand.

[alias_kev]

Hey Hopers,

I was only lurking in chat so didn't see everything earlier. I am sad that you feel so low at the moment. You have always struck me as great person at heart who is in a difficult situation who's trying despite everything to be a good mum. (Actually I think a lot of us here are similar to that its the uncaring types who avoid illnesses like ours).

Keep trying and keep fighting. If only for your little one. I for one am happy to lend an ear whenever I have enough emotional energy myself. I personally think often we have to talk/type stuff out just to get rid of it.... then those thoughts can't hurt us.

As going home said if the thoughts are really bad then the Samaritans can lend an ear anytime of day or night - on 08457 90 90 90 or even email them jo@samaritans.org (jo@samaritans.org) although thats rather slower.

Huggles for now. "Uncle" Kev

[hopers]

i spoke to the samaritans last night nad also got an emrg app with my doctor this morning told them them everything iv got to go back on monday for a proper assment to see if they can ajust my meds and so sorry i was so upset last ight and narrow minded i do apoligise thank you molly going home and kev for yr suport last night xxx

[mollymoo]

You are so welcome. Good luck for Monday and keep us posted please xxx

[alias_kev]

Well done Hopers. Everytime we have to admit how bad things are its a big challenge. You are my new hero having done this. :hugs:

Good Luck with Monday.
Huggles
Kev