seeker-of-peace
14-05-10, 16:15
Hello everyone,
just to introduce myself, you can call me Ronnie, I had what I called a breakdown back in 1997 where I thought I was dying, mannny doctors and so on later I'm told I have panic-anxiety disorder. Of course I don't belive it at the time so I spend - til now - 13 years being agoraphobic, only leaving the home with my husband and never alone.
I take anti depressants - citalopram, and have no idea if they really work.
I found this forum while looking up anxiety on youtube :)
Last year a family member took their life, I denied it happened for 10 months then boom, one day I had the flu (about 9 weeks ago) and I started to feel funny, before I knew it I was on the floor panting for breath and shaking ... yes, the panic attacks returned.
So since then I have been pretty depressed, anxious and very negative mentally and worrying I am back to square 1 with my progress.
It is said that to have a set back means you have moved forward but I'm not feeling like I am winning right now.
I meditate every morning and yell positive affermations in my head all day LOL but still the anxiety comes, I get all the classic symptoms and I do get tricked into thinking I am dying or something is very wrong. I read a lot and do everything I can to fight the negative thoughts and survive the scary symptoms.
It took over 10 years to really accept it is just anxiety. I think sometimes I must be stupid.
Well I hope this was not too depressing, I'm here because I want to be happy and walk outside alone and truly enjoy life again without being terrified of the symptoms.
Thank you :)
just to introduce myself, you can call me Ronnie, I had what I called a breakdown back in 1997 where I thought I was dying, mannny doctors and so on later I'm told I have panic-anxiety disorder. Of course I don't belive it at the time so I spend - til now - 13 years being agoraphobic, only leaving the home with my husband and never alone.
I take anti depressants - citalopram, and have no idea if they really work.
I found this forum while looking up anxiety on youtube :)
Last year a family member took their life, I denied it happened for 10 months then boom, one day I had the flu (about 9 weeks ago) and I started to feel funny, before I knew it I was on the floor panting for breath and shaking ... yes, the panic attacks returned.
So since then I have been pretty depressed, anxious and very negative mentally and worrying I am back to square 1 with my progress.
It is said that to have a set back means you have moved forward but I'm not feeling like I am winning right now.
I meditate every morning and yell positive affermations in my head all day LOL but still the anxiety comes, I get all the classic symptoms and I do get tricked into thinking I am dying or something is very wrong. I read a lot and do everything I can to fight the negative thoughts and survive the scary symptoms.
It took over 10 years to really accept it is just anxiety. I think sometimes I must be stupid.
Well I hope this was not too depressing, I'm here because I want to be happy and walk outside alone and truly enjoy life again without being terrified of the symptoms.
Thank you :)