Emme
15-05-10, 00:03
First of all, I want to apologise for the loooong post, and I really hope theres one or two people around who have the patience to read it.
Secondly, I have a few things to clarify before you read on, 1) I am 18, yes Im young but Ive always been very sure of what I wanted, 2) I am getting married in less than a month, 3) Ive been with my fiance for one year, 8 months.
Ill try not to babble and get this all out XD
I am on the yazmin pill and have been for over two years, and last month I stopped taking them, just for two weeks cos I was too lazy to go buy them, anyways, I started feeling REALLY down and awful and just.. directionless. It was really bad for a week or so.
I started rethinking my whole life cos I felt like none of it was good enough any more, the TAFE course Im doing, my decision to get married, all of it. I looked it up and apparently that happens to people coming off the pill because of the hormone imbalance.
Ive been back on it now for a month, and those bad feelings have eased up and alot of the time they arent there at all. I love my fiance, I know I will never find someone as amazing as him if I lived for another million years..
But I think because sometimes I feel really crap about my life in general, maybe Im just throwing my relationship in there as well?
Occasionally Ill think "Why bother telling him all these things, I wont be with him forever will I.." Or I will look at another guy and feel a little funny when I think about how if I stay with the man I love, Ill never know what its like to love that OTHER kind of man.
And then I kick myself on the inside for these thoughts, because I KNOW that I know I want to be with my fiance forever. I am having thoughts like this about almost everything else going on in my life as well, but because he is the most important to me, its kinda getting to me.
Also, I could just be freaking out cos Im getting married? I dont know.
I just really want to know if anyone else has been through anything like this?
Can "the blues" make you doubt everything in your life?
Pretty much I just want someone to tell me that this will all pass =) kthanks.
Secondly, I have a few things to clarify before you read on, 1) I am 18, yes Im young but Ive always been very sure of what I wanted, 2) I am getting married in less than a month, 3) Ive been with my fiance for one year, 8 months.
Ill try not to babble and get this all out XD
I am on the yazmin pill and have been for over two years, and last month I stopped taking them, just for two weeks cos I was too lazy to go buy them, anyways, I started feeling REALLY down and awful and just.. directionless. It was really bad for a week or so.
I started rethinking my whole life cos I felt like none of it was good enough any more, the TAFE course Im doing, my decision to get married, all of it. I looked it up and apparently that happens to people coming off the pill because of the hormone imbalance.
Ive been back on it now for a month, and those bad feelings have eased up and alot of the time they arent there at all. I love my fiance, I know I will never find someone as amazing as him if I lived for another million years..
But I think because sometimes I feel really crap about my life in general, maybe Im just throwing my relationship in there as well?
Occasionally Ill think "Why bother telling him all these things, I wont be with him forever will I.." Or I will look at another guy and feel a little funny when I think about how if I stay with the man I love, Ill never know what its like to love that OTHER kind of man.
And then I kick myself on the inside for these thoughts, because I KNOW that I know I want to be with my fiance forever. I am having thoughts like this about almost everything else going on in my life as well, but because he is the most important to me, its kinda getting to me.
Also, I could just be freaking out cos Im getting married? I dont know.
I just really want to know if anyone else has been through anything like this?
Can "the blues" make you doubt everything in your life?
Pretty much I just want someone to tell me that this will all pass =) kthanks.