aeroz21
23-05-10, 08:48
Hello everyone, I'm new to the forums :) sorry that this post is long, but I have a lot to get out...
I suffer from severe anxiety disorder. I have a constant fear of going 'crazy', like developing schizophrenia, becoming dangerous (due to intrusive thoughts), etc. I can always imagine myself losing it, starting to scream and cry in public... it's horrible. It's gotten to the point where I am to scared to leave the house on my own without my mum. I find it extremely hard to relax - I'm keyed up pretty much all the time and it's getting harder to deal with everyday life. I've had to quit my job, and my friends are getting mad at me because I can't socialize with them at the moment. I've been seeing the Mental Health Team, and have a counsellor. My psychiatrist has put me on sertraline 50mg, and also olanzapine 2.5mg for the anxiety (apparently).
I was doing better until a few nights ago. I mentioned to my MHT advisor that I didn't feel as if I was getting any benefit from the olanzapine, so they heightened my dosage to 5mg. I took it Thursday night before bed... thought everything was okay... until bam! I woke up in the middle of the night VERY disorientated, and thus had a huge panic attack. I thought I was going mad. I was dizzy, my eyes were jumbling up, and I felt like screaming and crying and calling my mum to beg her to take me to the hospital. I eventually calmed down, but this has REALLY REALLY shook me up. I've been having extremely intense panic attacks to the point where I almost can't even walk out the front door I'm so scared. And because I haven't been able to sleep properly, I'm now developing hallucinations!!! Whenever I'm about to fall asleep, I hear either a violent knock on the door or something. It doesn't usually bother me, but earlier I was trying to fall asleep, nearly did, but then I heard a very loud and very clear 'hello' right in my ear!!!! what the hell?!?! Now I'm scared I won't ever be able to sleep because of the intense fear this has instilled in me!
Has anybody else experienced anything similar? I'm back on 2.5mg of olanzapine, but I'm still all shook up. I swear I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown here.
I suffer from severe anxiety disorder. I have a constant fear of going 'crazy', like developing schizophrenia, becoming dangerous (due to intrusive thoughts), etc. I can always imagine myself losing it, starting to scream and cry in public... it's horrible. It's gotten to the point where I am to scared to leave the house on my own without my mum. I find it extremely hard to relax - I'm keyed up pretty much all the time and it's getting harder to deal with everyday life. I've had to quit my job, and my friends are getting mad at me because I can't socialize with them at the moment. I've been seeing the Mental Health Team, and have a counsellor. My psychiatrist has put me on sertraline 50mg, and also olanzapine 2.5mg for the anxiety (apparently).
I was doing better until a few nights ago. I mentioned to my MHT advisor that I didn't feel as if I was getting any benefit from the olanzapine, so they heightened my dosage to 5mg. I took it Thursday night before bed... thought everything was okay... until bam! I woke up in the middle of the night VERY disorientated, and thus had a huge panic attack. I thought I was going mad. I was dizzy, my eyes were jumbling up, and I felt like screaming and crying and calling my mum to beg her to take me to the hospital. I eventually calmed down, but this has REALLY REALLY shook me up. I've been having extremely intense panic attacks to the point where I almost can't even walk out the front door I'm so scared. And because I haven't been able to sleep properly, I'm now developing hallucinations!!! Whenever I'm about to fall asleep, I hear either a violent knock on the door or something. It doesn't usually bother me, but earlier I was trying to fall asleep, nearly did, but then I heard a very loud and very clear 'hello' right in my ear!!!! what the hell?!?! Now I'm scared I won't ever be able to sleep because of the intense fear this has instilled in me!
Has anybody else experienced anything similar? I'm back on 2.5mg of olanzapine, but I'm still all shook up. I swear I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown here.