Please help

[Mogwog]

I amdriving myself and everyone around me nuts.

It all started when I had a painful left breast and thought I could feel a lump. So I paid privately for a scan by a consultant that saw me when I had a benign breast lump removed last yr. On this scan he said he couldnt see anything and that I was fine. Well I couldnt leave it at that and still attended my nhs appt which was on Fri just gone. They scanned and saw a froup of small cysts which is fine but the scary part is that they were hovering over an area discussing what it could be and then the lady consultant who is present at the breast scans said it looks like air, whatever it is its benign!
But when I took my results back down the corridor to the breast clinic they just said all that was found was a group of cysts and that all was fine and they let me go and I didnt probe them any further as I was scared.

I keep focussing on this and thinking I am dying!!!! I cant do anthing without crying, I wake up in a cold sweat really early!

Please someone tell me they wouldn't have let me leave if they had any doubt there was something bad there. Please:weep:

I just wish I'd been satified with the first appt and left it at that but no I couldnt.

Laura

[gypsywomen]

they wouldnt leave you if it had been cancer ,,,no way ,, dont worry ,,,

[Mogwog]

Thanks for your reply.

Anyone else please?

Laura

[zippy]

I dont think it can be anything to worry about or they wouldnt just leave you.I can tell you that rationally but not myself lol.I to am waking up sweating and feel ill and cant stop thinking i have something terminal.

[Mogwog]

I give up, my husband rang the hospital for me and told them i was worried, so they phoned me and read to me what it says on the report something about cysts with echoes nothing was explained any further again. Nothing about the other area they were focussing on which werent the cysts.

I just want to be normal again i feel like running away

[zippy]

Can you not see your gp and get him to discuss your results with you and explain it all?
I know where you are coming from as i feel like running away but that wouldnt solve anything lol.

[Mogwog]

My gp thinks im nuts and i hate going. Your right running won't solve anything cos i'd still be me!

[zippy]

I know i always think my doctors think i am nuts to. I was there yesterday about my diarrhoea,nausea etc and been today for an internal lol and still not reassured.Have you tried cbt or councilling? I went to cbt yesterday for the first time so not sure if it will be any benefit yet.

[gypsywomen]

one thing cysts will not kill you ,

[LittleMissPanicky]

I know exactly how you feel, why can't we just trust our doctors etc , instead of thinking what if all the time, it's worrying me stupid xx

[jojo2316]

awwwwww i so relate to you, i really do, i know just how you feel. Breasts are my 'big thing' too. I've worried myself sick over them, to the point where i've sat in the gp's room, crying, saying i want a mastectomy!! All you can do is wait, because this feeling willl fade. Just remember your breasts HAVE been checked, and the specialists are happy. That is the bottom line. you don't have breast cancer. I know that sometimes scans can increase anxiety. I've had so many ultrasounds and I really had trouble believing them, so eventually I paid for a breast MRI, promising my GP that if she refered me, I WOULD believe the results...... but guess what? I don't! I'm full of what if's? What if the radiologist wasn't taking my scan seriously? What if the fact that i'm breast feeding masked a cancer? What if the radiologist decided to ignore something he would have followed up if i'd been a 'high risk' patient (as opposed to a nutcase hypochondriac)??
What I mean is that people with health anxiety can't get the worries out of their heads - that is the nature of the disorder. But it doesn't mean there is likely to be anything wrong physically. Sorry for the ramble, but i do understand....... just be gentle with yourself..... you don't have breast cancer. xx

[jothenurse]

I wish we had CBT classes where I live. My counselor does help some with that, but I basically have been reading books on it.