ann88
23-05-10, 13:52
I'm 22 and have had panic attacks/anxiety for about 3-4 years now. I had CBT last year for my panic attacks which was helpful to a degree but ultimately it's down to me to sort them out, and that's where I came unstuck. No matter how much I read about accepting the panic attacks and not fighting them, when one comes on and I'm out of my comfort zone all logic goes out the window. My heart races, I feel short of breath and am absolutely terrified. I just want to get home asap.
A few weeks ago I was out walking the dog with my bf and I had a terrible panic attack. I don't go far anyway so we were only a few mins from the car, but I was scared witless and desperate to get home. Since then, my anxiety has been much worse. The next time I went to the same place, I had another panic attack, just as bad. Maybe it's also because the nice weather is here and I feel I can't stay in the house all the time. My bf is very supportive but I am holding him back from doing so much, I can't go anywhere far from home for fear of having a panic attack. Today my bf went fishing at 5am and I drove down there myself at about 9am, it was about a 15 minute drive a bit out into the countryside. I only managed about an hour before having to come home. I started having a bit of a panic attack, and did manage to control it to a degree but just felt so on-edge and anxious that I couldnt relax and had to come home.
I'm so fed up because I feel like even if I can make myself go places and do things, I can't enjoy anything because I spend the whole time worrying and just feeling awful. Feel as though I will never get through this and it's just going to get worse. I am trying to find a therapist to see privately (as i've already had CBT on NHS) so maybe that will help, I dont know, it just feels hopeless. I also have health anxiety (only heart related due to ectopics) and have seen several doctors and had many tests, all ok. I've tried exercising but after I go on the treadmill for only 10 mins or so, alternating between running and power walking, it takes ages for my heart to slow down and then all day I feel as though my heart is beating faster/stronger than usual. This just adds to my belief that something is wrong with me. I'm so jealous of people that dont have anxiety. Im depressed, and cant seem to get out of this rut. Sorry for the rant, i dont know what anybody can say to help me but just wanted to get it out. x
A few weeks ago I was out walking the dog with my bf and I had a terrible panic attack. I don't go far anyway so we were only a few mins from the car, but I was scared witless and desperate to get home. Since then, my anxiety has been much worse. The next time I went to the same place, I had another panic attack, just as bad. Maybe it's also because the nice weather is here and I feel I can't stay in the house all the time. My bf is very supportive but I am holding him back from doing so much, I can't go anywhere far from home for fear of having a panic attack. Today my bf went fishing at 5am and I drove down there myself at about 9am, it was about a 15 minute drive a bit out into the countryside. I only managed about an hour before having to come home. I started having a bit of a panic attack, and did manage to control it to a degree but just felt so on-edge and anxious that I couldnt relax and had to come home.
I'm so fed up because I feel like even if I can make myself go places and do things, I can't enjoy anything because I spend the whole time worrying and just feeling awful. Feel as though I will never get through this and it's just going to get worse. I am trying to find a therapist to see privately (as i've already had CBT on NHS) so maybe that will help, I dont know, it just feels hopeless. I also have health anxiety (only heart related due to ectopics) and have seen several doctors and had many tests, all ok. I've tried exercising but after I go on the treadmill for only 10 mins or so, alternating between running and power walking, it takes ages for my heart to slow down and then all day I feel as though my heart is beating faster/stronger than usual. This just adds to my belief that something is wrong with me. I'm so jealous of people that dont have anxiety. Im depressed, and cant seem to get out of this rut. Sorry for the rant, i dont know what anybody can say to help me but just wanted to get it out. x