viv.
26-05-10, 11:51
Hello everyone
I’m a big fan of internet forums and use them regularly for many things. This is one place though that I would have never have thought I needed. I think this will be the first time I have actually openly acknowledged the fact that I am having a real problem. I might well ramble on a bit, so please bear with me, and I thank you in advance for your patience!
I suspect turning 40 last September was the beginning for me, the time when my anxiety kicked in. Whether it’s actually triggered by age I don’t know, but I don’t think so. Being 40 doesn’t bother me per se, and I can only identify it as the time my ‘attacks’ started. I began to experience chocking sensations – not like someone is physically chocking me, but like I have something in my throat…an excess of saliva or phlegm that I cannot get rid of. Swallowing becomes difficult and makes me want to gag / retch. On bad days I physically WILL gag (quite spectacularly and rather embarrassingly too!).
I’ve attempted to research a little about what triggers my anxiety attacks, and I have the triggers pretty much identified. Domestic matters mainly….money, bills etc. Ordinarily these are thing that have never got to me before, and I cannot understand why I have only now begun to suffer from these attacks. Sometimes I feel very foolish, but these feelings are very real to me. Luckily only twice in the last 7-8 months have I had to feign illness and go home from work. Monday this weeks was the latest incident. I felt SO dreadful all the way home ( a 30 mile drive), yet when I went through the front door I immediately began to feel better. The gagging sensations have returned a few times a day all week, but are getting better.
I have tried many things to try to aleiviate this. Breathing a certain way helps a little sometimes; causing myself pain by snapping an elastic band on my wrist also has been known to help.
I suppose an up-side to this is that since October I have lost 3 stone in weight, and continue to lose it.
I’m going to post this now before I become unintelligible.
I hope I can resolve some of my issues here, and maybe assist others by relating my experiences and by being able to identify with others going through similar issues.
Once again…thanks!
I’m a big fan of internet forums and use them regularly for many things. This is one place though that I would have never have thought I needed. I think this will be the first time I have actually openly acknowledged the fact that I am having a real problem. I might well ramble on a bit, so please bear with me, and I thank you in advance for your patience!
I suspect turning 40 last September was the beginning for me, the time when my anxiety kicked in. Whether it’s actually triggered by age I don’t know, but I don’t think so. Being 40 doesn’t bother me per se, and I can only identify it as the time my ‘attacks’ started. I began to experience chocking sensations – not like someone is physically chocking me, but like I have something in my throat…an excess of saliva or phlegm that I cannot get rid of. Swallowing becomes difficult and makes me want to gag / retch. On bad days I physically WILL gag (quite spectacularly and rather embarrassingly too!).
I’ve attempted to research a little about what triggers my anxiety attacks, and I have the triggers pretty much identified. Domestic matters mainly….money, bills etc. Ordinarily these are thing that have never got to me before, and I cannot understand why I have only now begun to suffer from these attacks. Sometimes I feel very foolish, but these feelings are very real to me. Luckily only twice in the last 7-8 months have I had to feign illness and go home from work. Monday this weeks was the latest incident. I felt SO dreadful all the way home ( a 30 mile drive), yet when I went through the front door I immediately began to feel better. The gagging sensations have returned a few times a day all week, but are getting better.
I have tried many things to try to aleiviate this. Breathing a certain way helps a little sometimes; causing myself pain by snapping an elastic band on my wrist also has been known to help.
I suppose an up-side to this is that since October I have lost 3 stone in weight, and continue to lose it.
I’m going to post this now before I become unintelligible.
I hope I can resolve some of my issues here, and maybe assist others by relating my experiences and by being able to identify with others going through similar issues.
Once again…thanks!