sweetmummy
27-05-10, 23:41
Just had an attack, thought it was too good to be true to have made it to this time today without one. :( My husband is out so dont have him here.
My wee girl woke up & said she'd had a dream about my grandad dying. I could feel the attack happening & started doing my breathing exercises, I managed to reassure my daughter that he was fine, fit & healthy. She went back to bed, but the minute she was out of sight my attack took hold. Ive been trying to get my breathing undercontrol with my breathing exercises, but its taking longer than anyother times! With my biggest fear being dying & the thought of losing my grandad, is scaring me the hell out of me. All my thoughts have turned to dying, im trying to think of my day with my kids & my cousins tomorrow, but it keeps coming back to dark thoughts. :(
I really hate this. Thanks for reading this if you do, i dont expect a reply, just wanted to vent. 13 years of these & Ive never gotten used to them. Everyone is different & everyone of them scare the bejesus out of me. :scared15:
My wee girl woke up & said she'd had a dream about my grandad dying. I could feel the attack happening & started doing my breathing exercises, I managed to reassure my daughter that he was fine, fit & healthy. She went back to bed, but the minute she was out of sight my attack took hold. Ive been trying to get my breathing undercontrol with my breathing exercises, but its taking longer than anyother times! With my biggest fear being dying & the thought of losing my grandad, is scaring me the hell out of me. All my thoughts have turned to dying, im trying to think of my day with my kids & my cousins tomorrow, but it keeps coming back to dark thoughts. :(
I really hate this. Thanks for reading this if you do, i dont expect a reply, just wanted to vent. 13 years of these & Ive never gotten used to them. Everyone is different & everyone of them scare the bejesus out of me. :scared15: