frightenedbutterfly
28-05-10, 10:06
Does anyone else feel filled with rage all the time?
Like today, I woke up fine at 9am and now I feel like I'm going to explode. I had a good night so it's not like I'm triggered right now.
I am having such strong urges to self harm - I'm nearly a year free - it's getting unbearable. It's like there's this constant screaming in the back of my mind and I need to hurt. I don't know if I'd ever go looking for the people that made me this way... I have fantasised about it. Wow, that makes me sound crazy. But yeah, I'm boiling over here and I'm a bit scared of what might happen.
How does everyone else manage these feelings?
Like today, I woke up fine at 9am and now I feel like I'm going to explode. I had a good night so it's not like I'm triggered right now.
I am having such strong urges to self harm - I'm nearly a year free - it's getting unbearable. It's like there's this constant screaming in the back of my mind and I need to hurt. I don't know if I'd ever go looking for the people that made me this way... I have fantasised about it. Wow, that makes me sound crazy. But yeah, I'm boiling over here and I'm a bit scared of what might happen.
How does everyone else manage these feelings?