mel1972
29-05-10, 18:30
Well it's been a while since I have posted, have been coping since my mum passed and had the 1 year anniversary recently (18 May) and nothing i managed it.. so thought i was finally coping with it and turning a corner!
I had a job interview last week and it went brilliant then i get a call yesterday saying i havent been successful, since then its like i have taken a complete turnabout i had a bad nights sleep and have felt rubbish all day and the sense of dying of a heart attack is back, and i have a pain in the shoulder (a symptom of a HA)(and of course i am having one)
I cant believe that I managed to get through the anniversary 2 weeks ago fine and something so stupid has knocked me back again. I am soo fed up and really angry with myself about this.
:weep:
I had a job interview last week and it went brilliant then i get a call yesterday saying i havent been successful, since then its like i have taken a complete turnabout i had a bad nights sleep and have felt rubbish all day and the sense of dying of a heart attack is back, and i have a pain in the shoulder (a symptom of a HA)(and of course i am having one)
I cant believe that I managed to get through the anniversary 2 weeks ago fine and something so stupid has knocked me back again. I am soo fed up and really angry with myself about this.
:weep: