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Little miss worry
31-05-10, 22:58
PLEASE DONT DISMISS THIS POST BECAUSE ITS LONG, I REALLY NEED SOME HELP! Thankyou everybody! x

Ok, i'm Lauren. Hello everybody :) im relieved to find a place where everyone understands. But i have been coming on here for weeks, and terrified to join cause i didnt want to accept that i really do have health anxiety. But its getting worse and begining to take over. The whole problem is cancer im terrified. I honestly constantly think i have it, in the pst ive thought i had bowel, ovarian, eye, brain tumour, cervical, and fear that its because its spreading. Recently we had an assembly on a friend of our teachers that contracted breast cancer at 26 and 2 doctors turned her away with pointless medicines. We were told she experienced things like back pain, and ever since ive been getting pains in my back, even as i sit here now. I keep finding bumps in my breast thinking there aching and showing my mum but she's saying its because i've recently gone on the pill and it is true theyre growing! but this could just be a coinsidence i cannot steer my mind away from that dreadful thought. i have a very vivid imagination and it doesnt help. a few years back my cousin dies suddenly of a brain heamorrage it scared me so much just randomly at 5 years old. When i was little i had a vivid dream that i had cancer and i remeber waking up hysterical crying. last year i started getting palpitaions, i told my mum and she said it was me being nervous, but eventually i persauded her to take my to the doctors he was also unsure, and referred me to the cardiac unit ta the hospital, i underwent 2 ecg's and a xray. These showed nothing but random ectopic beats with no explanation.. i sometimes htink maybe its because of cancer? i aslo travelled to new zealand and after the flight i had my first panic attack i was convinced i had deep vain thrombosis, hot, dizzy panicky couldnt breath, erratic heart it was truely awful, i was screaming to take me to a hospital. I get so scared. Im only sixteen and this is already taking over, im scare dthat thinking that i have cancer will make me get it. I have got better at searching things on the internet but i still worry like mad, i mainly dont search because im scared of what i may find. Im constantly checking my weight to see if i loose it due to as you can with cancer, im only little weighing just over 7 stone always been little my whole family are. But i feel sick and end up crying when ive lost wieght, i obsessively checking my breasts, my body. when i twist my upper body my chest makes a strange wheezing noise, all these thing just add up, i feel like im falling apart. I have ibs which makes life worse. I just want it to stop. my mum doesnt understand she thinks im being ridiculous,
Please and ideas would be so greatfully appreciated!
xxx Lauren xxx (Little miss worry) :wacko::weep:

diane07
31-05-10, 23:00
Hi Little miss worry

We just wanted to welcome you aboard to NMP. We hope you enjoy your stay here and get all the support and advice you need.

Please take some time to read the website articles on the left as well for loads of advice and tips.

Little miss worry
31-05-10, 23:07
Thankyou Diane, I really do hope so, im ready to fight this. And im certain with the pure support of you guys i can do it! :D xx:D

pollyanna
01-06-10, 03:53
hi.

firstly welcome to the site:)

the fears you have are very common in people who have anxiety, and many people here with be able to identify with you, myself included, i too have a very vivid imagination, and can convince myself i have everything/anything, almost every day something new pops up to cause me fear and anxiety:weep:
searching things on the internet is not a good idea, i know we do it for reassurance and occasionally we find it, but the majority of the time we find something else that starts to worry us, or come acrosss something we hadnt even thought of, so not a good idea.
I can assure you, that thinking about a certain illness, will not make you get it, honestly...
i know this is all so hard to believe, anxiety and constant worry/ or obsessive thoughts are a real drain on the body and mind, but it can improve, it just takes a wee bit of time, once you understand what is happening, it makes it a little easier to deal with.
Sometimes when other people dont understand it makes it extra hard, dont be hard on your mum, if someone has never experienced something sometimes its very hard to comprehend, and after all, a lot of the time we dont even understand it ourselves, so how can we expect others too.
You will get through this, it will pass, try and find things to do that will need you to focus/concentrate on , even for a short time, that will take you mind away from these other thoughts, with practice it gets easier, also relaxation of some sort, where you can let all those tense muscles relax, and maybe think about going back to your doctor and explain how you feel, and take it from there.
there is always people here for support too...:hugs:

take care

P x

Vanilla Sky
01-06-10, 14:05
Hi and welcome to NMP :welcome: Paige x