Justme71
03-06-10, 14:27
Hello everyone, I'm new to this forum having only just registered and introduced myself in the 'intro's' section.
Wasn't sure where exactly to put my post, but seeing as my 'panics' have been the worst symptom, I guess this is as good a place to start.
I was diagnosed with depression 8/9 years ago, but was probably suffering before that without doing anything about it.
Initially I was on Venlafaxine, but then changed to Fluoxetine. That worked really well for me and I got so well that last year following consultation with my GP I came off it.
I've now been off the Fluoxetine for 6-months and whilst I was doing okay, I think, this last month/6-weeks has been a bit of a struggle and I can't seem to pinpoint exactly why?:shrug:
I've felt ever so low on ocassions and have been in tears over what I'd consider are the most minute of things:weep: I've also had the most awful panic attacks as well:weep: culmulating in having one during the end/relaxation part in my yoga class this morning:weep: It's like having a jittery feeling in your tummy all the time and if 'it' (whatever 'it' is?) takes a hold that's it I go on to have a panic attack:weep:
When I feel like that, I think I must go and see my doc as soon as possible and go back onto the medication. However, once I've calmed down a bit and I'm able to rationalise a little better, I wonder if anything else can help?:huh:
I really don't think I've got any reason to feel like this. I thought I was coming to terms with the fact that life is full of ups and downs and was coping, I feel a bit of a failure if I do have to go back on the Fluoxetine but then I do know that there's nothing to be ashamed of in having mental health problems or taking medications for them.
I feel that I'm extremely lucky in life and don't deserve to feel like this when I'm so blessed:weep: I have a wonderful husband who is extremely caring and supportive - I feel like I'm letting him and everyone else down by being like this. We have fantastic holidays and I now work only 2/3 days a week in a profession that I love although my job can be stressful.
I feel like these panics just come out of nowhere:ohmy: like why on earth should I have one at the end of my yoga class? It wasn't our usual instructor today and okay it was a more dynamic class than usual but why? I wish I knew!:huh:
Yesterday morning I had one as well before work. Again I've no idea why?:weep: I managed to calm myself down enough to get ready, make the train commute and do my work fine. It's like as if when I'm on my own, with my own thoughts, these panics often arise? But then that wouldn't explain the yoga panic this morning would it? I'm at a loss :weep:
Although I wasn't rigorously recording when they happen, I don't think I had any last week but did have those jittery tummy feelings I'm sure.
The last panic attack was the week before, prior to going for a routine smear test and I don't know why. It's no worse than having a bikini wax and I know it needs doing and had told myself not to worry about the results/whatever will be, will be and we'll deal with the outcome as necessary. But the morning before I had several what I'd call chronic panic attacks.
Needless to say, afterwards I feel truly awful. Deflated, depressed, scared of when the next 'attack' will be, emotional, not with it fully, tensed up, not feeling like doing anything.
How do you all cope with this? Sometimes I feel theres no way out :weep:
Any help, tips or advice would be very much appreciated.
B xx
Wasn't sure where exactly to put my post, but seeing as my 'panics' have been the worst symptom, I guess this is as good a place to start.
I was diagnosed with depression 8/9 years ago, but was probably suffering before that without doing anything about it.
Initially I was on Venlafaxine, but then changed to Fluoxetine. That worked really well for me and I got so well that last year following consultation with my GP I came off it.
I've now been off the Fluoxetine for 6-months and whilst I was doing okay, I think, this last month/6-weeks has been a bit of a struggle and I can't seem to pinpoint exactly why?:shrug:
I've felt ever so low on ocassions and have been in tears over what I'd consider are the most minute of things:weep: I've also had the most awful panic attacks as well:weep: culmulating in having one during the end/relaxation part in my yoga class this morning:weep: It's like having a jittery feeling in your tummy all the time and if 'it' (whatever 'it' is?) takes a hold that's it I go on to have a panic attack:weep:
When I feel like that, I think I must go and see my doc as soon as possible and go back onto the medication. However, once I've calmed down a bit and I'm able to rationalise a little better, I wonder if anything else can help?:huh:
I really don't think I've got any reason to feel like this. I thought I was coming to terms with the fact that life is full of ups and downs and was coping, I feel a bit of a failure if I do have to go back on the Fluoxetine but then I do know that there's nothing to be ashamed of in having mental health problems or taking medications for them.
I feel that I'm extremely lucky in life and don't deserve to feel like this when I'm so blessed:weep: I have a wonderful husband who is extremely caring and supportive - I feel like I'm letting him and everyone else down by being like this. We have fantastic holidays and I now work only 2/3 days a week in a profession that I love although my job can be stressful.
I feel like these panics just come out of nowhere:ohmy: like why on earth should I have one at the end of my yoga class? It wasn't our usual instructor today and okay it was a more dynamic class than usual but why? I wish I knew!:huh:
Yesterday morning I had one as well before work. Again I've no idea why?:weep: I managed to calm myself down enough to get ready, make the train commute and do my work fine. It's like as if when I'm on my own, with my own thoughts, these panics often arise? But then that wouldn't explain the yoga panic this morning would it? I'm at a loss :weep:
Although I wasn't rigorously recording when they happen, I don't think I had any last week but did have those jittery tummy feelings I'm sure.
The last panic attack was the week before, prior to going for a routine smear test and I don't know why. It's no worse than having a bikini wax and I know it needs doing and had told myself not to worry about the results/whatever will be, will be and we'll deal with the outcome as necessary. But the morning before I had several what I'd call chronic panic attacks.
Needless to say, afterwards I feel truly awful. Deflated, depressed, scared of when the next 'attack' will be, emotional, not with it fully, tensed up, not feeling like doing anything.
How do you all cope with this? Sometimes I feel theres no way out :weep:
Any help, tips or advice would be very much appreciated.
B xx