Ella_Jayne
05-06-10, 01:05
Not physically... (now that i've said that that'll probably be my NEXT symptom...)
But where health anxiety is concerned.
I'm so sick of it now. For the last 10 months I've been worrying, paniking, going to the doctors or A&E, having tests done then feeling relieved for a while just to start worrying about something else soon after. :lac:
It's really getting me down now.
It started with chronic worries about my heart post panic attack, then I thought I had clots, tumor, a bloody pheo... something or another on my adrenaline gland, then back to my heart, lungs, my heart again... I am so fed up with it now!!!!!:wacko:
I've had sooooooo many ECG's it's not even funny. I've had more blood taken than a normal person would in their lifetime (I'm 21)
NOTHING has ever been found yet I'm still convinced that death is waiting for me around every corner... :scared15:
I've been for CBT twice and that hasn't done much. It's made my panic attacks calm down but it's done nothing for my constant worry. :unsure:
At times I feel in control of this panic but other times I question whether I have anxiety at all!!! Does anyone else get like this?
I was getting palps today and took myself to A&E (seems to be my new hobby over the past 10 months) and they found nothing on my ECG but said they would hook me up to a monitor and see how I went. So ya know that beeping sound on those monitors that beep for every heart beat? Well they proper freak me out, I can't seem to ignore it, it makes me twice as anxious as I'm looking for any sort of irregularity. Then all of a sudden the beeping stopped! :ohmy: OMG I thought I was dying, I was in a right state, but it turns out one of the leads came off. I was in a right tizzy!! :ohmy:
Got the all clear and left the hospital feeling drained and just fed up which has led me to this gigantic thread (sorry). :blush:
Why the heck am I still worrying about dropping dead even though I've had sooooo many tests done? :mad: You'd think that would be enough to convince me? But nope! I always think that I'll be the one that has the rare undetectable heart condition that pops her clogs before her time. :unsure:
I hate this anxiety!! Is there any other way of getting help for it other that meds and CBT?
Sorry for the rant by the way. :blush:
But where health anxiety is concerned.
I'm so sick of it now. For the last 10 months I've been worrying, paniking, going to the doctors or A&E, having tests done then feeling relieved for a while just to start worrying about something else soon after. :lac:
It's really getting me down now.
It started with chronic worries about my heart post panic attack, then I thought I had clots, tumor, a bloody pheo... something or another on my adrenaline gland, then back to my heart, lungs, my heart again... I am so fed up with it now!!!!!:wacko:
I've had sooooooo many ECG's it's not even funny. I've had more blood taken than a normal person would in their lifetime (I'm 21)
NOTHING has ever been found yet I'm still convinced that death is waiting for me around every corner... :scared15:
I've been for CBT twice and that hasn't done much. It's made my panic attacks calm down but it's done nothing for my constant worry. :unsure:
At times I feel in control of this panic but other times I question whether I have anxiety at all!!! Does anyone else get like this?
I was getting palps today and took myself to A&E (seems to be my new hobby over the past 10 months) and they found nothing on my ECG but said they would hook me up to a monitor and see how I went. So ya know that beeping sound on those monitors that beep for every heart beat? Well they proper freak me out, I can't seem to ignore it, it makes me twice as anxious as I'm looking for any sort of irregularity. Then all of a sudden the beeping stopped! :ohmy: OMG I thought I was dying, I was in a right state, but it turns out one of the leads came off. I was in a right tizzy!! :ohmy:
Got the all clear and left the hospital feeling drained and just fed up which has led me to this gigantic thread (sorry). :blush:
Why the heck am I still worrying about dropping dead even though I've had sooooo many tests done? :mad: You'd think that would be enough to convince me? But nope! I always think that I'll be the one that has the rare undetectable heart condition that pops her clogs before her time. :unsure:
I hate this anxiety!! Is there any other way of getting help for it other that meds and CBT?
Sorry for the rant by the way. :blush: