rescueremedylady
05-06-10, 08:26
Hi everyone, I'm new here.
For years I suffered panic attacks, agoraphobia and just general daily anxiety. This followed a traumatic childhood and then my mum left home when I was a teenager and it had a profound effect on me. It lead to years of problems. In the last 2 years or so things have really improved. I'm able to go out and about much more now and no longer feel the same level of anxiety.
I'm 39 now.
Last year I had an awful year and I went through a WHOLE year of dental misery with an undiagnosed problem, followed by treatment (when it finally was diagnosed) which was new to me and v. scary. All treatment turned out to be much better than I'd feared but the year took it's toll. The anxiety was bad all year. Then (with the offending tooth gone) the start of the year saw a change and the anxiety levels dropped and I started to feel really really good again.
I then had a return to some bowel problems I'd had twice before (both times it had cleared up and all was okay, this is the third episode in 3 years) This time I decided to go to the doctors and I was referred on to a doctor at the hospital because I'd had some bleeding. I've had this before, but it cleared up completely and I felt well.
The doctor used a small camera and has now said I need a colonoscopy as things look inflamed.
Now the anxiety is back big time, I'm so scared of having an awful diagnosis. Most of all I'm so scared that I might have to tell my children that I've got cancer. The doctor said he didn't think it was cancer and it didn't look like cancer, but I'm so scared. He thinks it might be colitis, I've resisted the temptation to look it up and scare myself even more.
One of my children is only 5 and is very clingy with me. That's what I'm finding so hard. I might be really ill and she might lose me. I can't bear the thought, I'm in floods of tears all the time. Then at other times I think that whatever this is I've lived with it for a while and I feel well. Then I think I've left it too late and I have daydreams of the doctor telling me that it's cancer, but it's inoperable.
I have a colonoscopy at the end of the week and am just almost paralysed with fear. Scared of the procedure and even more scared of the news I'll get.
Any positive stories about colonoscopies?
For years I suffered panic attacks, agoraphobia and just general daily anxiety. This followed a traumatic childhood and then my mum left home when I was a teenager and it had a profound effect on me. It lead to years of problems. In the last 2 years or so things have really improved. I'm able to go out and about much more now and no longer feel the same level of anxiety.
I'm 39 now.
Last year I had an awful year and I went through a WHOLE year of dental misery with an undiagnosed problem, followed by treatment (when it finally was diagnosed) which was new to me and v. scary. All treatment turned out to be much better than I'd feared but the year took it's toll. The anxiety was bad all year. Then (with the offending tooth gone) the start of the year saw a change and the anxiety levels dropped and I started to feel really really good again.
I then had a return to some bowel problems I'd had twice before (both times it had cleared up and all was okay, this is the third episode in 3 years) This time I decided to go to the doctors and I was referred on to a doctor at the hospital because I'd had some bleeding. I've had this before, but it cleared up completely and I felt well.
The doctor used a small camera and has now said I need a colonoscopy as things look inflamed.
Now the anxiety is back big time, I'm so scared of having an awful diagnosis. Most of all I'm so scared that I might have to tell my children that I've got cancer. The doctor said he didn't think it was cancer and it didn't look like cancer, but I'm so scared. He thinks it might be colitis, I've resisted the temptation to look it up and scare myself even more.
One of my children is only 5 and is very clingy with me. That's what I'm finding so hard. I might be really ill and she might lose me. I can't bear the thought, I'm in floods of tears all the time. Then at other times I think that whatever this is I've lived with it for a while and I feel well. Then I think I've left it too late and I have daydreams of the doctor telling me that it's cancer, but it's inoperable.
I have a colonoscopy at the end of the week and am just almost paralysed with fear. Scared of the procedure and even more scared of the news I'll get.
Any positive stories about colonoscopies?