Lissy43
05-06-10, 21:50
I thought this was getting better but I seem to always get anxious the week before my period/bleeding is due since my termination in December. I had a few heavy periods and they have left me terribly anxious and I can't face any bleeding down there. I had swabs done to reassure me the heavy bleeds were ok and I was put on the pill to lighten them abit.
I had a period on the pill in April and it was a tad lighter, thicker really but more painful. I did cope abit better because I had no gushes of blood, niagra falls as my GP put it. Then last month my nurse said I could carry a packet over as I had a hectic week with uni/work so could do without a period during that time. Now my pill free week is approaching in 6 days I am anxious again. I know it could be heavier as ive carried 2 packs together, but the nurse said it could also be totally normal and not heavier. I am abit worried about that I guess but mainly worried about justhaving a bleed. I hope to come off the pill by the end of the year, it was just a short term fix to see if it helped regulate my heavy bleeding abit after the operation. I just wish I could accept the bleeds, when they happen I freak out that I am going to haemorrage I think, or gush and it's the feeling of gushing that scares me, it is because I had bad gushing during my first period after the operation, it scared me so much but my GP reassured me it was normal at that time, but it has left me scared of my periods:blush:
I have read my CBT books etc... nothing seems to help the fear I have. I used to have heavy periods and never think twice about them, I still went out to work/uni, now I hibernate and dread moving off my bed, which isn't ideal having 3 children:winks:
I think I am at a loss here, I know noone can help me with this fear of the feeling of gushing, and fear of bleeding to death, it only me that can sort it out, but I just wish I knew how:blush:
I just needed to get this off my chest. Ive always had heavish periods, up to 9 days long and ive never worried before, I just want to be 'normal' again.
I had a period on the pill in April and it was a tad lighter, thicker really but more painful. I did cope abit better because I had no gushes of blood, niagra falls as my GP put it. Then last month my nurse said I could carry a packet over as I had a hectic week with uni/work so could do without a period during that time. Now my pill free week is approaching in 6 days I am anxious again. I know it could be heavier as ive carried 2 packs together, but the nurse said it could also be totally normal and not heavier. I am abit worried about that I guess but mainly worried about justhaving a bleed. I hope to come off the pill by the end of the year, it was just a short term fix to see if it helped regulate my heavy bleeding abit after the operation. I just wish I could accept the bleeds, when they happen I freak out that I am going to haemorrage I think, or gush and it's the feeling of gushing that scares me, it is because I had bad gushing during my first period after the operation, it scared me so much but my GP reassured me it was normal at that time, but it has left me scared of my periods:blush:
I have read my CBT books etc... nothing seems to help the fear I have. I used to have heavy periods and never think twice about them, I still went out to work/uni, now I hibernate and dread moving off my bed, which isn't ideal having 3 children:winks:
I think I am at a loss here, I know noone can help me with this fear of the feeling of gushing, and fear of bleeding to death, it only me that can sort it out, but I just wish I knew how:blush:
I just needed to get this off my chest. Ive always had heavish periods, up to 9 days long and ive never worried before, I just want to be 'normal' again.