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Pdubya86
06-06-10, 17:01
I'm annoyed as I write this. Annoyed that this bizarre feeling is still lingering around.
Anyway...I was just curious to know how others describe their experiences with depersonalisation?

I can understand why this horrid feeling comes about - after too much introspection during a period of anxiety etc etc, but I'm still convinced there is something wrong with me, like a form of epilepsy of something.
This is what I have been feeling for the past few months now...

-Too much existential thinking...freaking out about being alive, here and now.
-Feeling like my body is hollow or empty.
-Feeling 'light' or 'floaty'...often accompanied with the overwhelming urge to hold on to something and then freaking out that you cant escape from this feeling or from yourself!
-An awkward, weird energy all over my body, even my face...as if my skin feels ten times too big for my body.
-Arms feel disconnected (this is the worse part). I could be putting gel on my hair or something and it will just feel really strange and uncomfortable, like i'm not doing it (?)
-Feeling so small in this huge world.
-People look weird when I start to think too much.
-The feeling of not being able to escape (which can bring on panic!)
-Feeling my brain isnt properly processing what I am looking at. Like its only partially working.

It feels very real and not just something in my mind.

I cant decide whether the physical or mental feelings are worst.

Its so difficult to articulate.

Ive had an MRI now which was 'normal' apparently so I guess that rules a tumor out.
That leads me to think of other reasons. For a few years Ive what feels like a hard swollen gland under my ear and behind my jaw. Maybe this is pressing on a major artery supplying blood to my brain...so my brain isn't getting the bloody supply it should be...therefore isn't functioning correctly...therefore this weird physical disconnected feeling? SEE, what nonsense!
The worst part if, if this is anxiety, then its annoying to know I'm wasting precious months of my life in a vicious circle that ultimately is a complete farce! >:(

clairabella
06-06-10, 17:57
I suffer really badly from d/r and d/P.......for me it comes on after an attack of anxiety maybe a week or so later......i find it the most disturbing of symptoms because when it happens i dont actually feel anxious in fact i feel quite relaxed.
I have a lot of the feelings you describe...feeling detached...dream like state...confusion.....things looking weird or odd and the more i focus on them the more intense the feeling becomes......i absolutly hate it.I understand a little about it now and why it happens... so it doesnt scare me like it used to........apparently in periods of high stress and anxiety the brain shuts out any excess stimuli...it sort of shuts down for a while so you can recover from whatever stress is happening to you...it may sound silly but i see it has an invisible blanket protecting me from whats going on around me!!!!!What i do know is that the feeling subsides once your in a calmer state of mind...the more you panic about it the more the feeling stays with you.Anyway thats my experience of it....hope it helps....xxx

micheal88
07-06-10, 22:10
wowwww mate i have this its been really bad lately pm me we can share

loveletter
07-06-10, 23:09
Have had this on and off for over 20 years.
Verry much the same as you describe.

Have it a bit at the moment and hate it but I have had it so long and nothing has happened to me so I keep telling myself this and it helps a little.

phil06
08-06-10, 00:50
See some of my posts:

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=72589

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=74139

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=75173

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=74985

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=75826

I've had it bad for 8 weeks..and fear going mad..all the symptoms you mention.

fretty freda
14-07-10, 12:13
has anyone got a link to explain more about the scientific reason for this ive not had this for years but i keep worrying it could come back !! can thinking about it bring it on hope not afterall if you think about having a headache for a week it wont bring one on will it