Im so scared of cancer :'(

[John_Daryl]

Hello again guys, I know I made another thread on my lymph nodes, but this anxiety is too much for me to handle. Even though my doctors have told me I have got nothing to worry about, I can't stop thinking about them, especially the ones in my groin.
I keep going on the internet looking up my symptoms, and every time the only thing I find is "if you have had a recent infection, they may be swollen, or lymphoma".
It like makes me think, "so its definitely lymphoma then :weep:
Iv had my blood tests back and they came back fine, nothing wrong with me, but then I looked on the internet only to find "clear blood tests doesn't rule out lymphoma:ohmy:"
I felt fine in the time between that, but since Iv read it iv been back to worrying constantly about my lymph nodes and why I can feel them. Most of them are soft nodes, and kind of squishy and moveable. But the ones in my groin are not soft, but moveable.
I know I shouldn't look on the internet at my symptoms but I keep doing it without telling myself "stop".
Im going seeing a heamotologist next monday 21st June, but it seems a long time away. I suppose they will be able to tell me whats wrong with me though, considering they specialise in bloods.

[zippy]

Try not to google, i know its hard because i have done it myself and diagnosed myself with everything.I have a raised lymph node in my neck thats always like that and i have one behind my ear that as been up for a few months.I showed the doc it yesterday and he said they can come up with stress and he didnt seem concerned.I have just had bloodwork done, fbc,lft,kidneys,sugar and thyroid and all were ok and the doctor has tried to reassure me on numerous occasions that anything amiss would show on my bloods.Try and relax until you go for your tests,i know its hard as i am waiting for a test that isnt until the 29th of june.

[John_Daryl]

I can feel them all over my body though its really concerning

[greenpoodles]

Last Summer the lymph nodes in my groin and neck were swollen and sore. I was literally convinced I had cancer. Didn't have any other symptoms, I went to the dr and was sent for a blood test. Calling up following the test to get the results, I was told blood was mainly ok but there was 'something going on' and would have to go back in a month for another test.

Well I literally freaked out here, I thought it was the end for me! A few days later I began to develop severe headaches and a terrible sore throat. Going back to the dr I was diagnosed with some sort of viral chest infection type thing and given a course of penicillin. Hey presto, after a few days I felt better and a couple of weeks later my lymph nodes went down.

Whenever I feel severely anxious about my health, I remember how convinced I was I had cancer and how wrong I was.

I have loads of squishy nodes in my neck that I can feel. It was only when they swelled up and became rock hard that I knew something was wrong. I just assumed the worst, as usual.

Anyways, don't worry about it. It's not worth it. I know it's easier said than done but try and trust the doctors. There are countless reasons why the lymph nodes swell.

[sammie23]

I ahve the excact same problem as you. I can feel my lymphnodes in my groin and i hate it :(

Im to waiting on results from bloods. I have alot of pain near my right lymphnode in my groin. I dont if its actually the node itself that is causing the pain or its something else whats in that area. I always get pains at the top of my legs to. Im 24 years old and im constantly worrying about cancer.. I hate it :(.. But be sure to no that your not the only one that sits there worrying about your lymphnodes, i am 2 xx

[John_Daryl]

Mine are painless, and squishy, apart from the ones in my groin, your probably right, but its so scary knowing what it could possibly be

[John_Daryl]

anyone ? :\

[John_Daryl]

Iv also started to notice these tiny red dots on my skin (smaller than a mm) and i googled it and found its linked to cancer also:weep:
Somebody please get me out of this hell hole !!

[Joe-W12]

Where on your body is this rash located?

[John_Daryl]

Its not a rash, their are way less than what are seen on that picture, and on the upper arms , about 7-10 on each arm.

[John_Daryl]

http://www.flickr.com/photos/12451820@N04/1281324170/

[Joe-W12]

You are just like me mate in that you totally fear cancer.. I know that I get weird reactions on my skin when I get anxious about my health. Maybe you're caught in a vicious circle. I get stressed that something is wrong, it causes red bumps on my elbows and knuckles, I worry more.. I just wander when it will stop. Having suffered with bad anxiety and most of there nasty symptoms it sounds like u just have ur body worked up due to stress. I know it's hard (I'm going through it dayly) but kick back, book another appointment at the doctors for peace of mind and stick a movie on and try to chill

[Worrier]

Daryl,

Well I hate to say this to you again, but you MUST STOP googling, you are making yourself much worse by keep doing this. Believe me I know, I was addicted to googling and it does nothing but cause more anxiety. At some point you have to accept what the doctor is telling you, honestly you will drive yourself insane.

Maybe you need to reach out and get counselling for the real problem - your mental health. None of us like to do that, but that is what you really need.

I am a health anxiety sufferer too so I do understand and am not trying to be mean, but you must take control of this now before it becomes even more out of control that it already is.

Seek help and find the path to recovery.

Take care
Natalie

[John_Daryl]

Nah i dont mind the criticism and i know fully well what im doing is wrong, my doctor has told me get counciling, but i told him if my tests results come back fine then ill be fine.

[Vixxy]

But will you? It sounds to me like whatever the result is you'll attach your anxiety onto something else related.
The tests wont mean your glands will go down. Theyll still be there.
Personally I would get some therapy so you can deal with the thought patterns youre getting. Even if these tests calm your fears you should do it to stop this happening again in the future.

[Worrier]

I agree with Vicky, I don't think you will be fine no matter what the results. Obviously you have had reassurance before and it didn't help.

Therapy is defo the answer to this one.

[John_Daryl]

Im just so convinced its cancer, because iv got these palpable lymph nodes, even though they havnt grown, because iv got these little red dots on my skin, i looked it up and its a symptom of lymphoma :'(