87sal87
17-06-10, 20:04
I've hit the point where I feel that this is the last straw, it's gonna finish me off & I'm gonna go crazy...or worse...
The main trigger lately is being my cat going missing. I've had her since I was only 8 years old [15 years] & I'm missing her so, so much. The despair & sadness is unbearable.
I don't know if anybody has seen my other posts but I have suffered from mild anxiety since I left school in 2003 but last christmas, it worsened considerably & I ended up in the A&E with a VERY fast heart rate :(
Since then I've slowly been trying to get back to some kind of normality...since joining these boards I've realised I have bad Health Anxiety, GAD, Social phobia & slight OCD tendencies.
Anyway, I thought I was getting back to some kind of normal life, but a few weeks ago, my cat went out & she never came back. We've done everything we can to find her & nothing has worked. :'(
She's been part of my life for such a long time & I'm finding it really hard to cope without her.
My anxiety seems to be worsening by the day & I'm not getting ANY sleep, I have reddy black bags under my eyes & the skin on my face has gone dry & cracked. I've gone back to the feeling of being strangled & like I can't breathe. Severe chest pains, arm pains, palpitations. :(
My cats are one of my only comforts & this has been a big blow to me when I weren't properly feeling 100%
The days are unbearable & I can't bear the thought of her never coming back & never finding out what's happened to my lovely, sweet cat :(
I can't cope with the grief, it's like nothing I've ever felt before, like a huge crushing emotional pain & nothing can dull it...
I know I should go to my doctor but I'm worried he's gonna be like 'You're this upset over a cat?' sort of thing, like he'll think I'm stupid & won't understand :(
I don't know what on earth to do... :'(
The main trigger lately is being my cat going missing. I've had her since I was only 8 years old [15 years] & I'm missing her so, so much. The despair & sadness is unbearable.
I don't know if anybody has seen my other posts but I have suffered from mild anxiety since I left school in 2003 but last christmas, it worsened considerably & I ended up in the A&E with a VERY fast heart rate :(
Since then I've slowly been trying to get back to some kind of normality...since joining these boards I've realised I have bad Health Anxiety, GAD, Social phobia & slight OCD tendencies.
Anyway, I thought I was getting back to some kind of normal life, but a few weeks ago, my cat went out & she never came back. We've done everything we can to find her & nothing has worked. :'(
She's been part of my life for such a long time & I'm finding it really hard to cope without her.
My anxiety seems to be worsening by the day & I'm not getting ANY sleep, I have reddy black bags under my eyes & the skin on my face has gone dry & cracked. I've gone back to the feeling of being strangled & like I can't breathe. Severe chest pains, arm pains, palpitations. :(
My cats are one of my only comforts & this has been a big blow to me when I weren't properly feeling 100%
The days are unbearable & I can't bear the thought of her never coming back & never finding out what's happened to my lovely, sweet cat :(
I can't cope with the grief, it's like nothing I've ever felt before, like a huge crushing emotional pain & nothing can dull it...
I know I should go to my doctor but I'm worried he's gonna be like 'You're this upset over a cat?' sort of thing, like he'll think I'm stupid & won't understand :(
I don't know what on earth to do... :'(