Andromeda
21-06-10, 06:22
I've wanted to get a tatto since before i can remember , i had one booked for my 20th birthday but then my anxiety condition came out of no where a few weeks before so i had to cancel .
It's been a pretty bumpy ride for me but the one challenge i keep coming back to is getting a tattoo .
I'm a bit strange when it comes to things like this , i'd call myself a massive wimp with a ridiculously low pain tolerance , i'm over dramatic about absolutely everything , however , i've had piercings before , with things like that i used to be able to handle with no problems ( yet if is stubbed my toe i'd be convinced i'd die ... ) so i figured i'd have the same mentality with a tattoo .
But now i'm completely terrified .
a few months back i went to the doctor for some blood tests , i've never had any issues with blood or needles , i've had blood taken before and it didn't bother me , injections i managed to survive through , but because i had anxiety on this occasion it was a disaster , i freaked out when my doctor put that strap thing around my arm because my arm was literally blue , i went all clammy and felt so faint .
the doctor never did manage to get blood ...
so my worry is that if i go for a tattoo , i'll pass out :weep: or die or just that the pain will be so bad that i won't be able to carry on or something
has anyone got any experiences they'd like to share ? I REALLY want to do this for myself to prove anxiety can't stop me from doing things i want to do , it's done that enough this past year of my life , i want to take back some more control .
i just have to find the strength :-(
It's been a pretty bumpy ride for me but the one challenge i keep coming back to is getting a tattoo .
I'm a bit strange when it comes to things like this , i'd call myself a massive wimp with a ridiculously low pain tolerance , i'm over dramatic about absolutely everything , however , i've had piercings before , with things like that i used to be able to handle with no problems ( yet if is stubbed my toe i'd be convinced i'd die ... ) so i figured i'd have the same mentality with a tattoo .
But now i'm completely terrified .
a few months back i went to the doctor for some blood tests , i've never had any issues with blood or needles , i've had blood taken before and it didn't bother me , injections i managed to survive through , but because i had anxiety on this occasion it was a disaster , i freaked out when my doctor put that strap thing around my arm because my arm was literally blue , i went all clammy and felt so faint .
the doctor never did manage to get blood ...
so my worry is that if i go for a tattoo , i'll pass out :weep: or die or just that the pain will be so bad that i won't be able to carry on or something
has anyone got any experiences they'd like to share ? I REALLY want to do this for myself to prove anxiety can't stop me from doing things i want to do , it's done that enough this past year of my life , i want to take back some more control .
i just have to find the strength :-(