montana
25-06-10, 22:31
hey
Just joined up and really looking for help/reassurance and talking through my issues.
I suffer from health anxiety - and have suffered from it for the last 3 years. It all started in 2007 when i watched my husbands 9 year old son die from cancer and then his mother. i was pregnant with our son at the time following 5 years of IVF treatment so my ability to deal with emotional trauma was severely compromised.
The first time HA reared its ugly head was following hospitalization in 2008 with extreme stomach cramps which turned out to be - you guessed it - nothing. I was astounded that my mind could produce such physical pain - prescribed Dosulepin. After 6 months i decided enough was enough and stopped taking them. Over the next couple of years i decided i had throat cancer - then lung cancer - stomach cancer - bowel cancer - always ending in my biggest fear of cancer. i have paid £100's in private tests etc over the years. For the past week i have had really really bad stomach cramps again and have been in a real state again, which resulted in me swallowing my pride and going back to the docs again! today. she thinks its anxiety and prescribed Citalopram and counselling - again.
I am at a loss to explain how my mind can be so powerful - if it is that - and getting so fed up with it - i mean it took me 5 years to concieve my son - he is nearly 3 now and i just want to enjoy raising him but instead i have had the most awful 3 years.
the stomach cramps is anxiety isnt it? but its so painful........
Sorry to ramble
Montana x
Just joined up and really looking for help/reassurance and talking through my issues.
I suffer from health anxiety - and have suffered from it for the last 3 years. It all started in 2007 when i watched my husbands 9 year old son die from cancer and then his mother. i was pregnant with our son at the time following 5 years of IVF treatment so my ability to deal with emotional trauma was severely compromised.
The first time HA reared its ugly head was following hospitalization in 2008 with extreme stomach cramps which turned out to be - you guessed it - nothing. I was astounded that my mind could produce such physical pain - prescribed Dosulepin. After 6 months i decided enough was enough and stopped taking them. Over the next couple of years i decided i had throat cancer - then lung cancer - stomach cancer - bowel cancer - always ending in my biggest fear of cancer. i have paid £100's in private tests etc over the years. For the past week i have had really really bad stomach cramps again and have been in a real state again, which resulted in me swallowing my pride and going back to the docs again! today. she thinks its anxiety and prescribed Citalopram and counselling - again.
I am at a loss to explain how my mind can be so powerful - if it is that - and getting so fed up with it - i mean it took me 5 years to concieve my son - he is nearly 3 now and i just want to enjoy raising him but instead i have had the most awful 3 years.
the stomach cramps is anxiety isnt it? but its so painful........
Sorry to ramble
Montana x