miggymoggy
26-06-10, 13:54
Hi
My Mum died very suddenly from cancer last year. She was fit and healthy then diagnosed and died within 10 weeks.
Since then, I have been a nervous wreck about my health. I've been to the doctors convinced I'm having a heart attack, they gave me a 24 hour heart monitor but all fine,.
Then if I get a headache I think I'm having a brain tumour and get myself in a total, blind panic.
I've just had a hysterectomy and went back into hospital last week with excrutiating stomach pains. They gave me morphine, so I assumed it was cancer. Then they said they couldn't find anything and would do ultrasound and mRI scan. When they were coming in with the results I could hardly breath, convinced they would say I have weeks to live.
Now they have given me the all clear I'm convinced that my family and friends know that I am dying, and have asked the doctors to lie, so that my last few weeks will be happier.
I am analysing everything they say.
My Mum died very suddenly from cancer last year. She was fit and healthy then diagnosed and died within 10 weeks.
Since then, I have been a nervous wreck about my health. I've been to the doctors convinced I'm having a heart attack, they gave me a 24 hour heart monitor but all fine,.
Then if I get a headache I think I'm having a brain tumour and get myself in a total, blind panic.
I've just had a hysterectomy and went back into hospital last week with excrutiating stomach pains. They gave me morphine, so I assumed it was cancer. Then they said they couldn't find anything and would do ultrasound and mRI scan. When they were coming in with the results I could hardly breath, convinced they would say I have weeks to live.
Now they have given me the all clear I'm convinced that my family and friends know that I am dying, and have asked the doctors to lie, so that my last few weeks will be happier.
I am analysing everything they say.