sequeena
27-06-10, 00:43
Hello everyone, my name is Sarah, I'm 21, I live in South Wales with my fiancé and our 3 dogs, 1 cat and 5 kittens :)
I am suffering from what my doctor has called 'severe depression'. I am currently taking 20mg fluoxetine (was on 20mg citalopram but my body turned it into a sedative so all I did was sleep).
I'm not sure how much info I am allowed to put here but basically I was sexually abused for 10 years by my step father. In March it all came out and I (along with my niece - another story) was taken to a SARC center.
Since then I have self harmed and that is why I was put onto anti depressants.
I am receiving help from my GP, victim support and I've just got in touch with Mind. I've been assessed by 2 mental health nurses but won't be able to see a psychiatrist for about 18 months and SARC are great ... but they cannot help with what happened to me as my case is ongoing.
I never was an outgoing person, I'm 21 and done all my partying days but I have totally cut myself off. I cannot bear to go out alone (I do try to force myself for the sake of my dogs). I cannot be around strange men, I can't sleep, I either don't eat for days or over eat, I am anxious all the time etc.
I feel like a shell of my former self. I don't do any of the things I used to do. I haven't worked since May 2009 due to other problems and my OH earns enough to keep us both but I feel like a failiure and a waste of space.
I don't have anyone to talk to either. My OH bless his soul has been so understanding but he has said to me NOT to tell him the details of what happened to me as he's not yet sure he would be able to look at me the same way (it sounds terrible I know but he's worried he will look at me and see HIM which I understand). My mum is pushing me to tell her what happened but I just can't bring myself to tell her. Why is it I can tell the police all the details but not her?
Anyway, thanks for reading. I really appreciate it :)
I am suffering from what my doctor has called 'severe depression'. I am currently taking 20mg fluoxetine (was on 20mg citalopram but my body turned it into a sedative so all I did was sleep).
I'm not sure how much info I am allowed to put here but basically I was sexually abused for 10 years by my step father. In March it all came out and I (along with my niece - another story) was taken to a SARC center.
Since then I have self harmed and that is why I was put onto anti depressants.
I am receiving help from my GP, victim support and I've just got in touch with Mind. I've been assessed by 2 mental health nurses but won't be able to see a psychiatrist for about 18 months and SARC are great ... but they cannot help with what happened to me as my case is ongoing.
I never was an outgoing person, I'm 21 and done all my partying days but I have totally cut myself off. I cannot bear to go out alone (I do try to force myself for the sake of my dogs). I cannot be around strange men, I can't sleep, I either don't eat for days or over eat, I am anxious all the time etc.
I feel like a shell of my former self. I don't do any of the things I used to do. I haven't worked since May 2009 due to other problems and my OH earns enough to keep us both but I feel like a failiure and a waste of space.
I don't have anyone to talk to either. My OH bless his soul has been so understanding but he has said to me NOT to tell him the details of what happened to me as he's not yet sure he would be able to look at me the same way (it sounds terrible I know but he's worried he will look at me and see HIM which I understand). My mum is pushing me to tell her what happened but I just can't bring myself to tell her. Why is it I can tell the police all the details but not her?
Anyway, thanks for reading. I really appreciate it :)