PurpleRain
15-02-06, 11:59
Hiya
Im new here and not sure if im posting this in the right place but i feel like i just cannot cope with all this panic and anxiety any longer!!
Ive been reading through a few posts over the last few days and its been a comfort to know these feelings i experience can be understood by others. Ive been having panic attacks for about ten years but i feel all this anxiety over such a long time building up in me is making me so ill and has restricted me and taken over and ruined me and my life!!
I cannot leave the house alone and my ex boyfriend helps me with shopping etc,i felt i was coping better recently with the attacks as i got to the point where i could actually stand in a que in the supermarket without shaking or dizziness and i was planning to go back to college and i felt like my life was starting to finally come together!
But last week when i was talking to a neighbour i started to suddenly come over all funny and was a big bag of shaking nerves and it was so obvious and so embarrasing i just said goodbye in the middle of the conversation and just walked away!
Since then ive been having bad panic attacks again and constantly anxious and then this morning when some builders came round to estimate some work i feel i completely made an utter fool of myself again!! It was so annoying as although yes i was worrying about them coming over i thought i was feeling ok today and was going to be able to cope with it alright but when they arrived i could just feel my nerves building up inside of me and started shakin,couldnt concentrate on what they were telling me about the work,turned my back on them and just walked out the room and it was SOOOO embarrasing i just walked out the room said ok see you then goodbye and couldnt get them out the house quick enough!! God they must think im a bloddy wierdo!! So embarrasing!
Im absoulutly dreading next week when they come to do the work and not sure how im gonna cope with it!!
Anyway its the shaking i find hard to cope with and the fact im so obviously nervous,i cannot hold a conversation as im so nervous and cannot concentrate and find it very difficult to speak as im shaking so much and my mouth tenses up and shakes also god its so annoying!!And the more i think about it the worsre i get!!But i cannot stop thinking about something im telling myself not to think about! Im sure you all know what i mean!
Ive taken medication over the years but they caused terrible side effects so im not going down that road again! Ive tried relaxation tapes,yes they relax me and i think have helped a little and at the time while doing them they do completely relax me which is nice but as soon as im out the house im a bag of nerves again!
Im sorry ive gone on a bit but i hope im making sense!
Is there anything i can do to stop this horrible shaking that i experience do you think? i just feel so angry with it all now,i feel like im a nice person but with all ive had to deal with over the years im started to get angry and im worried im going to turn into a bitter twisted recluse!!
Ok im gonna stop there and im sorry if ive gone on ive just read through what ive written and hope you dont all think im a complete loony i just wanna get better and feel normal again!
Also i just wanted to say this is a great site and its lovely how you are all so supportive of each other!!
See ya !!
Im new here and not sure if im posting this in the right place but i feel like i just cannot cope with all this panic and anxiety any longer!!
Ive been reading through a few posts over the last few days and its been a comfort to know these feelings i experience can be understood by others. Ive been having panic attacks for about ten years but i feel all this anxiety over such a long time building up in me is making me so ill and has restricted me and taken over and ruined me and my life!!
I cannot leave the house alone and my ex boyfriend helps me with shopping etc,i felt i was coping better recently with the attacks as i got to the point where i could actually stand in a que in the supermarket without shaking or dizziness and i was planning to go back to college and i felt like my life was starting to finally come together!
But last week when i was talking to a neighbour i started to suddenly come over all funny and was a big bag of shaking nerves and it was so obvious and so embarrasing i just said goodbye in the middle of the conversation and just walked away!
Since then ive been having bad panic attacks again and constantly anxious and then this morning when some builders came round to estimate some work i feel i completely made an utter fool of myself again!! It was so annoying as although yes i was worrying about them coming over i thought i was feeling ok today and was going to be able to cope with it alright but when they arrived i could just feel my nerves building up inside of me and started shakin,couldnt concentrate on what they were telling me about the work,turned my back on them and just walked out the room and it was SOOOO embarrasing i just walked out the room said ok see you then goodbye and couldnt get them out the house quick enough!! God they must think im a bloddy wierdo!! So embarrasing!
Im absoulutly dreading next week when they come to do the work and not sure how im gonna cope with it!!
Anyway its the shaking i find hard to cope with and the fact im so obviously nervous,i cannot hold a conversation as im so nervous and cannot concentrate and find it very difficult to speak as im shaking so much and my mouth tenses up and shakes also god its so annoying!!And the more i think about it the worsre i get!!But i cannot stop thinking about something im telling myself not to think about! Im sure you all know what i mean!
Ive taken medication over the years but they caused terrible side effects so im not going down that road again! Ive tried relaxation tapes,yes they relax me and i think have helped a little and at the time while doing them they do completely relax me which is nice but as soon as im out the house im a bag of nerves again!
Im sorry ive gone on a bit but i hope im making sense!
Is there anything i can do to stop this horrible shaking that i experience do you think? i just feel so angry with it all now,i feel like im a nice person but with all ive had to deal with over the years im started to get angry and im worried im going to turn into a bitter twisted recluse!!
Ok im gonna stop there and im sorry if ive gone on ive just read through what ive written and hope you dont all think im a complete loony i just wanna get better and feel normal again!
Also i just wanted to say this is a great site and its lovely how you are all so supportive of each other!!
See ya !!