lilly-lou
03-07-10, 14:10
After suffering from anxiety, panic attacks and depression for years resulting in agoraphobia which left me housebound for 18 months 6yrs ago I've been plodding on using no meds. I've had a major blip, anxious and unable to get my son to school I took the decision to go the docs for the first time in over 7yrs and ask for meds.
I saw a lovely lady doc who realised that I'm pretty bad ATM and gave me citailpram and some diazepam as an sos while the meds kick in. I'm feeling pretty much like a failure and crying all the time and was too scared to take the ani-dispressant last night but did manage a diazepam and didn't freak out too much when I took it. I'm so scared to become housebound again and I'm still going out but need somebody with me. I hate feeling this way and just want to feel better, I just can't feel like this for the rest of my life which is the reason I've opted for meds now, trying it by myself has meant I've suffered and lead a limited life for almost 8yrs.
I'm going to be brave tonight and start the meds as I have a massive fear of them so wish me luck
I saw a lovely lady doc who realised that I'm pretty bad ATM and gave me citailpram and some diazepam as an sos while the meds kick in. I'm feeling pretty much like a failure and crying all the time and was too scared to take the ani-dispressant last night but did manage a diazepam and didn't freak out too much when I took it. I'm so scared to become housebound again and I'm still going out but need somebody with me. I hate feeling this way and just want to feel better, I just can't feel like this for the rest of my life which is the reason I've opted for meds now, trying it by myself has meant I've suffered and lead a limited life for almost 8yrs.
I'm going to be brave tonight and start the meds as I have a massive fear of them so wish me luck