lior
03-07-10, 22:10
Hey all
I was fine, now I'm coming off my antidepressants and my chemicals have gone haywire.
I'm not even going to write about yesterday, it was awful.
But today I've been busy - and yet I have this horrible boredom of everything. I don't want to go out, I don't want to stay put. I don't like the music I listen to usually. I don't like other music either. I don't care about the girl I'm seeing. I don't care about forming any other love interest, boy or girl. I've had enough of everything. I have no patience.
Yet I can fake being happy to potential employers easily. Just, not my family any more. I can't pretend with them now.
I was never the type to be bored. If I was bored, it was pleasureable. It meant I wasn't working. I could watch TV. I wasn't really bored at all - I still had zest to do things. But this is unlike anything else. This is similar to being depressed only I actually have the energy to do things if I wanted to do them. It sucks!!
I was fine, now I'm coming off my antidepressants and my chemicals have gone haywire.
I'm not even going to write about yesterday, it was awful.
But today I've been busy - and yet I have this horrible boredom of everything. I don't want to go out, I don't want to stay put. I don't like the music I listen to usually. I don't like other music either. I don't care about the girl I'm seeing. I don't care about forming any other love interest, boy or girl. I've had enough of everything. I have no patience.
Yet I can fake being happy to potential employers easily. Just, not my family any more. I can't pretend with them now.
I was never the type to be bored. If I was bored, it was pleasureable. It meant I wasn't working. I could watch TV. I wasn't really bored at all - I still had zest to do things. But this is unlike anything else. This is similar to being depressed only I actually have the energy to do things if I wanted to do them. It sucks!!