molkogirl
04-07-10, 11:14
Hi,
I feel awful at the moment, my anxiety is back really bad and i think im starting to get depressed too.
Everything seems to be going wrong, i hate my new job, its cleaning but they give you unrealistic lists to complete and then when its not all done the manager shouts at you like your stupid. They wont listen to reason.
My neighbour is stressing me out too, her son is always at the fence pestering, wanting to play or doing other annoying things like squirting water in through open windows or knocking my seed planters over. Its gotten to the point where i dont go in the garden now because hes just there all afternoon and evening until bedtime.
My grandma is ill and has carers 4 times a day but the rest of the family will not help her, so it all gets left to me. I do her washing and shopping and bills etc. The carers are phoning me all the time, she ran out of this or that. I dont drive and am finding the whole thing an added strain.
Now i feel dizzy most of the time and keep getting random symptoms that freak me out, i have been to docs loads recently thinking there is something serious wrong with me. I just feel like crying most of the time im so unhappy.
I know im on the downward spiral to full blown anxiety and depression, i have been there many times in the last 10 years but how do i stop it.
Sorry for moaning on i just feel so lost and misrable now.
Thanks for listening
Sarah
I feel awful at the moment, my anxiety is back really bad and i think im starting to get depressed too.
Everything seems to be going wrong, i hate my new job, its cleaning but they give you unrealistic lists to complete and then when its not all done the manager shouts at you like your stupid. They wont listen to reason.
My neighbour is stressing me out too, her son is always at the fence pestering, wanting to play or doing other annoying things like squirting water in through open windows or knocking my seed planters over. Its gotten to the point where i dont go in the garden now because hes just there all afternoon and evening until bedtime.
My grandma is ill and has carers 4 times a day but the rest of the family will not help her, so it all gets left to me. I do her washing and shopping and bills etc. The carers are phoning me all the time, she ran out of this or that. I dont drive and am finding the whole thing an added strain.
Now i feel dizzy most of the time and keep getting random symptoms that freak me out, i have been to docs loads recently thinking there is something serious wrong with me. I just feel like crying most of the time im so unhappy.
I know im on the downward spiral to full blown anxiety and depression, i have been there many times in the last 10 years but how do i stop it.
Sorry for moaning on i just feel so lost and misrable now.
Thanks for listening
Sarah