anxiety bringing out bad thoughts,biggest fears

[oxsamiexo]

Anxiety has drawn the fun out of my life, out of everything
it has made everything so hard to enjoy. everything that was once
so much fun, has become nothing but one big worry. My anxiety brings
out tons of thoughts that involve my worst fears, so it brings
out morbid, and bad health thoughts because those are my biggest
fears. i feel guilty when these thoughts go threw my head
because i really do not want to be thinking ANY OF IT & the thought only
occurs about the people i love the most. it makes me sick to my stomach and
i just pray for the thoughts to go away ill be in the
middle of doing something then all of a sudden this terrible
thought will pop into my head,which will be completely
random and nothing invovling what i was doing.or ill be doing
something and the whole time im doing it i have these terrible
thoughts going threw my head that i try to ignore the hole time
but there always in the back of my head and then because
i have so much anxiety i will sit there and dwell on the thought
i just had and then once agian because of the anxiety after im done
dwelling on that one bad thought i just had, ill start reminding myself
of bad things ive thought in the past, and then ill dwell on those
then before i know it i have nothing done, and just have been
battling in my own mind all day long. latley this had become
very difficult to live with and i really just want it to go away.
it has been life altering and has become a challenge i face every
single day. i dont know how or when it started i just know that
it is really taking a toll on me.i find myself fighting my own mind
all day, i'll time things i do and tell myself that if i dont get it
done in that time that this specific thing will happen and ill think of
something really horrible that will happen, and then later ill do the same
things which could conclude to something else really horrible and
ill do this to myself all day. it is really making me miserable & im only 20. :shrug:

[Jabz]

i feel you. it started with me when i was 20, to be honest I've had OCD thoughts ever since i was a child, but you never really pay attention to them when you're a kid..it's only when you're an adult that you start to react and this is key. try not to react to your thoughts, the fact that you feel so miserable about these thoughts is the biggest example that you're actually fine and will never go through with your thoughts...whatever they maybe. so try not to be so upset over them, just let them hover around and don't react to them, pretend they are a bully and just leave them be, once they see they can no longer scare you they will lose interest and slowly go away. just remember it is a slow process and it will be difficult, but be patient and practice. slowly all these thoughts will not bother you and most of them will go away, i am not saying you wont have negative thoughts but you wont be so bothered by them...

feel free to PM me if you need to chat.