ditzy
10-07-10, 00:40
Hi guys I am new to this forum and have been reading it a couple of weeks now, you all seem so friendly & supportive & it's been a great help to me.
I'm 34 & my HA started 18 mnths ago when I convinced myself I had cancer of the oesophagus. I suddenly noticed one day that I cld feel a lump in my chest when I swallowed & I cld feel food going down etc. Over the next couple of weeks (after countless visits to different doctors all telling me there was nothing wrong with me) it just got worse the dreaded Dr Google came out & I literally spent every waking hour on the internet. Of course I ended up diagnosing myself with oesophagal cancer as I had most of the symptoms but the dr said no way & put me on antidepressants. By this time I was convinced & thought I was dying and no-one was listening to me and after 3 weeks and a night of no sleep & major panic attack (almost went to A&E) my mum went with me to docs & she put me on 10 day course diazepam. 3 days later all symptoms were gone & I was different person & they never came back again. Had endoscopy done couple of months later just to check & everything was fine.
How can my body have made up all those symptoms? At the time they felt so real. I was ok until 3 months ago when I got sore throat that went on for more than 2 weeks - what did I do? Yep Dr Google came out again & if u type in chronic sore throat more than 2 weeks somewhere it brings up 'cancer' - my biggest fear since I smoked for 13 years (about 10 a day) but gave up a year ago. Dr said it was post nasal drip no way cancer gave me nasal spray & sure enough a week later it had gone.
Then 3 weeks ago I notice I have bit of a cough which went after a week but I have since got chest pains & sore back & now convinced I have lung cancer. Been back to docs again who reassured me no way cancer back pain is muscular,chest pain anxiety & full blood test was fine nothing to worry about. She has put me on anti depressants again.
So why then after being reassured by my dr am I still thinking its lung cancer? I'm sure I'm tensed up all the time which causes it but there's always that little doubt in my mind -what if? And to top it all off I've just read a story (yes I've been googling again) about a 39 yr old woman who had lung cancer due to heavy smoking - why do I do this to myself?? The pain got worse just reading about it now I can't stop thinking about it and won't sleep tonight. Uurggh!! :mad:
Sorry for long post just thought I'd introduce myself!
I'm 34 & my HA started 18 mnths ago when I convinced myself I had cancer of the oesophagus. I suddenly noticed one day that I cld feel a lump in my chest when I swallowed & I cld feel food going down etc. Over the next couple of weeks (after countless visits to different doctors all telling me there was nothing wrong with me) it just got worse the dreaded Dr Google came out & I literally spent every waking hour on the internet. Of course I ended up diagnosing myself with oesophagal cancer as I had most of the symptoms but the dr said no way & put me on antidepressants. By this time I was convinced & thought I was dying and no-one was listening to me and after 3 weeks and a night of no sleep & major panic attack (almost went to A&E) my mum went with me to docs & she put me on 10 day course diazepam. 3 days later all symptoms were gone & I was different person & they never came back again. Had endoscopy done couple of months later just to check & everything was fine.
How can my body have made up all those symptoms? At the time they felt so real. I was ok until 3 months ago when I got sore throat that went on for more than 2 weeks - what did I do? Yep Dr Google came out again & if u type in chronic sore throat more than 2 weeks somewhere it brings up 'cancer' - my biggest fear since I smoked for 13 years (about 10 a day) but gave up a year ago. Dr said it was post nasal drip no way cancer gave me nasal spray & sure enough a week later it had gone.
Then 3 weeks ago I notice I have bit of a cough which went after a week but I have since got chest pains & sore back & now convinced I have lung cancer. Been back to docs again who reassured me no way cancer back pain is muscular,chest pain anxiety & full blood test was fine nothing to worry about. She has put me on anti depressants again.
So why then after being reassured by my dr am I still thinking its lung cancer? I'm sure I'm tensed up all the time which causes it but there's always that little doubt in my mind -what if? And to top it all off I've just read a story (yes I've been googling again) about a 39 yr old woman who had lung cancer due to heavy smoking - why do I do this to myself?? The pain got worse just reading about it now I can't stop thinking about it and won't sleep tonight. Uurggh!! :mad:
Sorry for long post just thought I'd introduce myself!