Self Doubt
12-07-10, 15:45
For almost a year now I have been struggling with intrusive thoughts and just the other week I was loosing my battle. I got to a point where I believed so deeply that I unintentionally was going to do horrible and horrendous things that I could no longer live. After telling my therapist I was planning my death I was sent to my local doctor and put on new medication and referred to a psychiatrist. I felt better for awhile afterward and my therapist and doctor would check up on me to see how everything were going, and for awhile I felt a lot better about myself and my life. However now things are getting rough again and I still haven't heard anything from the psychiatrist and I don't see my regular therapist until the end of the week. I don't feel anything is worth doing anymore if I am doomed to be a monster. All my life goals and dreams mean nothing to me anymore. I hate myself and I only stay for my family who would be devastated if I were to kill myself. But would they really miss me If they new I was a monster?
My question being: Is there a difference between someone who has the urge to do bad things and someone who has the urge but knows it is wrong and wont do it?
My question being: Is there a difference between someone who has the urge to do bad things and someone who has the urge but knows it is wrong and wont do it?