Cheshire Tom
18-07-10, 17:06
A bit about me then. I am about to turn forty and I live in Cheshire in the northwest of England. I work full time in sales.
Interested in art, reading, music, architecture, history and photography.
I have had a real fight with anxiety and all it brings for about a decade now, but have had it pretty bad for about five years. :weep:
I am currently seeing a counsellor every few weeks who is trying to help me pull away from all this self-doubt, stress, worry and wishing I was someone else and not me, lol. :yesyes:
It affects me by making me feel I cannot do things, like socialising or traveling far. Feeling that I don't count and that I look bad all the time etc etc. Holidays are a no go, as is going to the pub or even the cinema. Sound familiar perhaps ?
When it is bad and has a real grip on me, that is when I suffer with what I call faulty thinking. Automatic negative and self-hating thoughts. Not self, harming, just that I am not good enough for anyone or anything. Maybe you can relate to this then ?
I am looking for others to chat with and to make me realise that life isnt all that bad and that I can overcome this crippling illness. It's just at times fighting in exhausting and the option of not fighting feels like I am drowning under a sea of anxiety.
All the best. :bighug1:
Tom in Cheshire.
Interested in art, reading, music, architecture, history and photography.
I have had a real fight with anxiety and all it brings for about a decade now, but have had it pretty bad for about five years. :weep:
I am currently seeing a counsellor every few weeks who is trying to help me pull away from all this self-doubt, stress, worry and wishing I was someone else and not me, lol. :yesyes:
It affects me by making me feel I cannot do things, like socialising or traveling far. Feeling that I don't count and that I look bad all the time etc etc. Holidays are a no go, as is going to the pub or even the cinema. Sound familiar perhaps ?
When it is bad and has a real grip on me, that is when I suffer with what I call faulty thinking. Automatic negative and self-hating thoughts. Not self, harming, just that I am not good enough for anyone or anything. Maybe you can relate to this then ?
I am looking for others to chat with and to make me realise that life isnt all that bad and that I can overcome this crippling illness. It's just at times fighting in exhausting and the option of not fighting feels like I am drowning under a sea of anxiety.
All the best. :bighug1:
Tom in Cheshire.