Diz.
19-07-10, 09:43
I'm sorry for writing this but I don't have anywhere else to go or anyone to ask. I'm 17 and I'm in college. I have my first lesson of the day in just over an hour. I associate rooms and places with anxiety if I've had terrible anxiety or a panic attack in that place before.
On Friday I had really bad anxiety in the class I have next. I couldn't enter the school building and my friend had to come and reassure me. She walked me in but about 3 minutes of being in there I had to excuse myself and found myself walking home. I have that lesson again. I feel so sick with anxiety and I'm shaking just thinking about it. What's worse is the thought I might have to leave the lesson again. (Might I add, the teacher in this lesson has chosen to recognise my anxiety and panic attacks as "being a drama queen") And I feel as if he, and all my peers, are expecting it of me.
I've tried breathing exercises, mints, calming music - but I can't calm myself. i'm also emetophobic so the nausea really isn't helping. As crazy as it sounds, I'm doing everything I can to make myself feel hungry because I have less anxiety when I am hungry.
I'm wondering if it would be easier if I stayed at home today
Any tips? Advice? Anything?
Much love x
On Friday I had really bad anxiety in the class I have next. I couldn't enter the school building and my friend had to come and reassure me. She walked me in but about 3 minutes of being in there I had to excuse myself and found myself walking home. I have that lesson again. I feel so sick with anxiety and I'm shaking just thinking about it. What's worse is the thought I might have to leave the lesson again. (Might I add, the teacher in this lesson has chosen to recognise my anxiety and panic attacks as "being a drama queen") And I feel as if he, and all my peers, are expecting it of me.
I've tried breathing exercises, mints, calming music - but I can't calm myself. i'm also emetophobic so the nausea really isn't helping. As crazy as it sounds, I'm doing everything I can to make myself feel hungry because I have less anxiety when I am hungry.
I'm wondering if it would be easier if I stayed at home today
Any tips? Advice? Anything?
Much love x