Andromeda
22-07-10, 08:16
and i actually don't know what the hell is going on !
all we've done these past 4 sessions is just talk about all the different problems in my life .
there's so much of it that she even said to me yesterday she doesn't really know where to start and might have to seek 'higher intervention'
what the hell does that mean ? i'm now freaking out that they're going to ship me off to some mental hospital ... :wacko:
So the way it works , you are slowly forced into situations that you'd usually avoid to essentially 'bring on' the anxiety , so you can face it and learn to manage it ? is that right ?
But it's hard for me to find situations that trigger my anxiety , because it's not situations , my issue is around getting sick and dying and those thoughts pop in and out of my head at various times throughout the day.
So i'm not really being exposed , and when i do feel anxious , i know how to stop it 9 times out of 10 so again i manage to avoid the anxiety by myself .
Am i missing the point somewhere ?
I can't be exposed to my fear because my fear as i've said previously is dying , unless they're planning to kill me ... ha ha .
I'm trying my best to be positive about it but the whole experience is pretty distressing for me , i hate the fact that i do most of the talking , i've listened to myself talk for 21 years , i want someone else to EXPLAIN to me why i'm feeling the way i am , not get me to explain !!!!!!!
Also the sessions are an hour every two weeks and i just feel like it's too long a wait , for not enough time actually in the session . i always feel rushed and the worst part is opening a wound 5 minutes before the end of the session , i always leave feeling emotionally exhausted and pretty much can't function for the rest of the day ... is this normal ??!??!
:weep:
if this doesn't work what other options are there ?!
stress .
all we've done these past 4 sessions is just talk about all the different problems in my life .
there's so much of it that she even said to me yesterday she doesn't really know where to start and might have to seek 'higher intervention'
what the hell does that mean ? i'm now freaking out that they're going to ship me off to some mental hospital ... :wacko:
So the way it works , you are slowly forced into situations that you'd usually avoid to essentially 'bring on' the anxiety , so you can face it and learn to manage it ? is that right ?
But it's hard for me to find situations that trigger my anxiety , because it's not situations , my issue is around getting sick and dying and those thoughts pop in and out of my head at various times throughout the day.
So i'm not really being exposed , and when i do feel anxious , i know how to stop it 9 times out of 10 so again i manage to avoid the anxiety by myself .
Am i missing the point somewhere ?
I can't be exposed to my fear because my fear as i've said previously is dying , unless they're planning to kill me ... ha ha .
I'm trying my best to be positive about it but the whole experience is pretty distressing for me , i hate the fact that i do most of the talking , i've listened to myself talk for 21 years , i want someone else to EXPLAIN to me why i'm feeling the way i am , not get me to explain !!!!!!!
Also the sessions are an hour every two weeks and i just feel like it's too long a wait , for not enough time actually in the session . i always feel rushed and the worst part is opening a wound 5 minutes before the end of the session , i always leave feeling emotionally exhausted and pretty much can't function for the rest of the day ... is this normal ??!??!
:weep:
if this doesn't work what other options are there ?!
stress .