Onwards & Upwards
24-07-10, 22:42
I dreamt last night about the world and universe and that one day it would all come to an end and that some terrible disaster like a meteor or huge volcanic eruption could wipe everything out at any time.
I woke up feeling detached from reality and so, so scared of life, haven't been able to concentrate on anything, have been like a zombie.
We've all wondered about these things in life, I'm sure. There was a time where these sorts of thoughts would be very fleeting-infact they would probably only last a second and then pass and I would just get on with my day, they were never a problem and I was happy just to tell myself that our brains were never meant to be able to cope with such a huge thing and we could never get our heads around it.
This time, it's real fear. The night when I had the dream was preceded by a couple of days of these sort of thoughts entering my head, but I managed to carry on with my work but the thoughts were kind of sticking but I can not work out why the hell I even started to think about this, I wonder if something just got lodged in my sub-concious.
I'm desperate to stop these thoughts, I keep wondering what life is all about, really heavy stuff, I know. I can't help thinking that I've got lumbered with the worst fear of them all.
Usually dreams are nonsense and you can tell yourself that, but the stark reality of this one is hard to shift.
I got even more scared when it started to get dark this evening and I'm really scared that I won't sleep tonight and I'll lie in bed with all these terrible thoughts.
Has anyone else ever had thoughts like this and did they eventually pass?
I woke up feeling detached from reality and so, so scared of life, haven't been able to concentrate on anything, have been like a zombie.
We've all wondered about these things in life, I'm sure. There was a time where these sorts of thoughts would be very fleeting-infact they would probably only last a second and then pass and I would just get on with my day, they were never a problem and I was happy just to tell myself that our brains were never meant to be able to cope with such a huge thing and we could never get our heads around it.
This time, it's real fear. The night when I had the dream was preceded by a couple of days of these sort of thoughts entering my head, but I managed to carry on with my work but the thoughts were kind of sticking but I can not work out why the hell I even started to think about this, I wonder if something just got lodged in my sub-concious.
I'm desperate to stop these thoughts, I keep wondering what life is all about, really heavy stuff, I know. I can't help thinking that I've got lumbered with the worst fear of them all.
Usually dreams are nonsense and you can tell yourself that, but the stark reality of this one is hard to shift.
I got even more scared when it started to get dark this evening and I'm really scared that I won't sleep tonight and I'll lie in bed with all these terrible thoughts.
Has anyone else ever had thoughts like this and did they eventually pass?